Caught in the moment- not many stories forthcoming.
I have little time to reflect now days. It used to be that every time I sat down at my computer I could write a little story. I've posted a lot of them here. Now days I work 50-55 hours a week and I'm going to school part time. I'm married now so I have to consider someone else when I'm managing my time. We are trying to make a baby. If I have a kid I know he or she will be even more demanding of my time.
That's not a bad thing. All those years spent alone and dreaming of the past...maybe I wasn't living life to the fullest. Maybe the time to reflect isn't when you are 39, but 69.
I have a friend who I've known for 25 years. He's stuck in the past. Every time I talk to him he's always bringing up the shit we did when we were kids. He still lives with his folks and hasn't worked in many years. He sits in the house all day, smoking cigarettes and dreaming. I've never said anything to him about it. I don't know why he's like that. Maybe he's not right in the head. But it just occurred to me that I wasn't much different than him until about a year and a half ago. I held down a job and had my own place, but I spent a lot of time dreaming, too.
The time is now. A lot of people seem to be oblivious to it. Nothing new really happens for them. No progress is being made. It's all just wasted time. I've done it, too. I'd just get into my comfort zone and pass the time. The guy who owns the company I work at is 84 years old. He still runs the show and he's very sharp, even if he's starting to fail physically. I've told a few guys there that if I were him I would have retired 15 years ago. He's a multimillionaire. But I was looking at it from my perspective. Looking out ahead of me and into the future, I used to see myself driving a truck for a living all that time. I really don't like my job now and I'm sure when I got to be in my sixties I'd be retiring as soon as I could. But that old guy is still in the moment. That company keeps him alive inside. The guys at work say they'll take him out of there on a stretcher one day. I doubt the old man is thinking about that much, but it's probably the truth.
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I like these thoughtful posts of yours. I always enjoy reading the thoughts of my good friends...
Your plans are awesome! I wish you the best, always.
Live in the moment. It's all we have...
I loved reading your stories from the road, but I'm just happy for you that everything is working out so well. You deserve a full life and it sounds like you have attained it at last. 