Everything's in a state of decay.

[Rizen]

I've been depressed and really busy lately. My mom has stage 4 cancer and a week ago she went to the hospital because she was confused, which happens when she has an infection. She's out now but in a rehabilitation center and she'll probably be there for a few weeks. So I've had to do stuff for her. I took her car in for an oil change and made an appointment for the windshield to be fixed then I went to that. My old couch is a complete pos so I ordered and received a new one; it came but some parts were missing so I had to deal with that. People helped me take my old couch to the trash so I'm sitting in a chair with a half completed couch next to me. I've been visiting my mom and also going to her apt to take care of her cat every other day but the car wouldn't start, at night, after I visited her so I called triple A and got a jump but when I've been driving it around the power to the dash and displays flickers on and off so I went in and the mechanic tested the battery; it's not that so now I have an appointment to get the engine evaluated, then I'll have to get it repaired on another appointment which will make 5 in a month. The car's been hemorrhaging money. My mom's laptop kept crashing so I took it to best buy to get it repaired, picked it up and got it back to her. The lamp in my bedroom got the switch stripped so I have to get a new one but it's just not a good time after buying a couch. So my room has no light except the overhead. And when I was getting gas I found my debit cards had expired so I have to deal with that tomorrow. On top of all that this woman I'm dating has some kind of compulsive resistance to answering messages. She says it's like there's a wall there. So I've been sending her texts but haven't gotten any replies except a brief word from her apologizing for not replying. I'd really like to talk with her more but she isn't replying and it's been 2 months since our first and only date, which I thought went well. So I'm not sure how to handle that. One thing online dating has beaten into my head repeatedly is THERE AREN'T MANY PEOPLE LIKE ME (I'm autistic and an atheist). I really hope this works out.

[cilla4progress]

2. One day at a time,

and deep breaths...

Whether atheism or theism - whatever your spiritual journey, and all are valid - this community is here for you!

Holding you in my heart, Rizen. ❤

[alwaysinasnit]

3. ...

[secondwind]

4. You sure have a handful....

Don’t forget the cat!

[captain queeg]

5. When I saw the title of your post I thought on entropy.

There was a time I understood it more, but what I do remember is that basically everything is degrading as you say, and the universe is slowly winding down. It’ll take billions of years and I won’t even go there, but I remember I worked at a plant many years ago. I had changed jobs and about 5 yrs later I took a new job at the same plant. I hadn’t seen it all in that time. Part of my job pertained to maintenance. As I walked around the place the first few days back I kept thinking of entropy, the place had aged and it was obvious. Anyway I tend to think in those kinds of physical terms but as you say you could extrapolate to other realms.

[Skittles]

6. hi Rizen

I'll echo that while there may not be a lot of people like you, there are those of us out here on DU who like you fine....we are here for you

a word of advice - don't leave any more messages for that gal -if there's anything good there, she will reach out to you

and what's wrong with your bank, they should have already sent you a new debit card!

[WhiteTara]

7. Hey Buddy Rizen

When things go this wrong in my life, I remind myself that everything is temporary and the pendulum always swings in the opposite direction.

Be gentle with yourself. Though we all seem different, in reality we are all the same. We all want to be happy and none of us want to suffer. This too shall pass and brighter days are coming.

[Rizen]

8. Thanks for the support everyone!