Oh my God my brother just died.
We were fighting for 2 years and not talking until my cousin called me and told me he had cancer. 'So I called him and we made up. He even apologized to me for something ..... it doesn't matter. So me and some other cousins were going week after next to have a family reunion. But he all of a sudden took a turn for the worse and died last night
I have no family excerpt cousins and one aunt now. I hate this. I can't begin to tell you how alone I feel.
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while in the background you have the comfort of knowing that you were able to make up before his death.
So very sorry, Maraya. May that "coming to terms" with each other continue to bring you comfort and peace. 
Terrible news, but please be gentle with yourself and be glad that you were able to reconcile.
I've been there. Last sibling died in 2020 from covid. Last uncle out of his 8 siblings died in 2021 of covid.
Hang in there. Good that you made peace before this. Treasure the relatives and friends that you have left.
Hugs from your DU family.
Yours is a good reminder for all of us to mend fences and take nothing for granted. I need to reach out to a certain family member right away. I'm glad you and your brother had a chance to reconnect.
Sending you my sincere wishes to be able to make it through the next while. I wish I could give you a hug. So sorry. 
I'm glad to know that you and your brother made up before his unfortunate passing.
I know that we're not blood, but you have family right here on DU if you need us.
I’m so sorry.
someone is always on DU
“Someone’s always here.”
To Maraya - damn, I’m so sorry to hear about this loss. Sending you lots of mental hugs, and it’s comforting to see how many people here are reaching out to you and embracing you in the online way.
And Skittles, I treasure that observation you made how-ever-long ago you posted it. “Someone’s always here.” Hard to describe how many times I‘ve thought of that and have taken comfort (and then made a beeline to DU!).
I live my life upside-down 
Hugs...
I expect you will find peace in that in this terrible difficult time.
May your recent reconciliation with your brother bring you some comfort.
DU supports you.
May your brother’s memory be for a blessing.
You are strong and brave and dearly loved.
Sending you love and light and sweet Shalom, peace be with you.
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pick our friends but not our family, but families share such a deep history.
Keep your head up, we're all just human.
It's hard losing what little you have of family.
…completely sucks. I was one of two kids. My brother, younger by 3 years, died much too young at only 23, in a scuba diving adventure that ended badly. We were very close. Raised by loving but stern parents who had high expectations and tolerated absolutely no defiance. We could talk to each other about things we wouldn’t have dared to discuss with our parents. My dad made it to 90, and died in 2011. Covid got my mom at age 98 in 2020.
You may find there is more than the emotional sadness that has just knocked you down. I came up with the label “biological loneliness” to try to describe what I was feeling - not having anyone with whom to share childhood memories is really hard.
There are so many stories here on DU, and everywhere else, no doubt, about estranged siblings. I hope your too brief reconciliation can be of some comfort.
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So sorry for the loss of your Brother. You have my deepest condolences.
From you post, I wood guess you lots of friends now. that has to help, that and time. I just have one brother and his two adult kids. I feel lucky having the best wife in the world. I now have tons of step grand kids and even two Get Grand Daughters..
Wishing you a strong recovery from your loss.
Though you didn't have a chance for the reunion, I am glad that you made peace between you before he died.
I am so glad you had the opportunity to reconnect and forgive one another. That would have added great pain on top of your grief, I suspect.
The loss of everyone who has known us for our whole lives and shared memories is a special kind of grief.
You will always be glad that you were brave enough to make that friendly phone call to him when you heard about his sad news. And you will always have the memory of your brother as a man who was a big enough person to respond to your friendly overture by returning your love and reinstating the family bond between you. These memories will be with you to comfort you, all your life!
I lost both of my parents recently and I'm holding on for dear life to my fourteen years old Chihuahua. She's all I have left. Sending deep condolences to you. Stay encouraged. We love you. ❤️
and very thankful that you were able to reconnect before he died.
you have us if that helps You're in our thoughts.
So very sorry for your loss. I'm glad that you and your brother made amends before he died.
terrible and tragic to lose your only brother and only close family. this is indeed sad.
I know how much it hurts! I am so so sorry! I hope you feel this great big hug!
Sudden deaths are the hardest
Just went through the loss of a sibling
What is the only bit of silver lining is that the two of you had time to talk and you at least know you did your level best to reach out and that part worked.
Shortly before my Mom died we cleared up some lifelong hurts and her last year was the best we had together.
I am sorry you and your brother didn't have more time to enjoy the positive change you both made.
DU is a sort of chosen family and someone is always here, but your actual family may surprise you and bond with you more over this shared grief for your brother.
And those who pass on still live in our hearts. Remember the good times and all his quirks and celebrate his life and the small quiet reunion you had over the phone. Hang onto the blessing so you can endure the hard times.