I am having a dark day.
This is what is going on. It is more of a GD type of thing so that is why I posted it in there http://www.democraticunderground.com/10021942949
But needless to say It has been a disheartening day for me. I am sick of living with the rug just inches away from slipping away. I want my happiness back. I had so much going for me and my husband. now... 
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...breathe. Please.
I know what you're doing and it's not helping you, at all. Stress, overthinking, obsessing, is all bad for you. Try to get your mind on better things until the facts are all in. Try to find a positive alternative in case things don't work out.
There are things that we have little or no control over, but we survive somehow. Your story gives us all perspective, so I thank you for sharing. We need the reality checks.
Now, about breathing...in and out.
May help a bit to inform President Obama about this 'wrinkle.' Do so here or elsewhere: https://my.barackobama.com/page/s/what-does-2000-mean-to-you?firstname=Ellen&lastname=Goldstein&email=ellenbedlington%40aol.com&zip=21740&keycode=4d82345c6e24cac88bb30bfbd18fecb40ad73fdc456a4429fa5ddf990ac25fd3&utm_medium=email&utm_source=obama&utm_content=Share+what+2000+means+to+you+and+then+ask+your+friends+and+family+to+do+the+same&utm_campaign=em12_20121202_sc_don&source=em12_20121202_sc_don
(Change my name and email to yours.)
Best.
sending you hugs, light, blessings and hoping that a good job comes your way quickly.
It makes me sick the way veterans are treated in this country. No veteran should be homeless or jobless. If there is any kind of economic stimulus, employment for veterans needs to be top priority.
You would be surprised how many vets and whole families are sleeping in dark allies right now. And I so NOT want to join them again.
