Lousy evening before New Year's Eve

[tavalon]

I've been fighting severe depression (okay, not fighting, more laying in bed staring at the wall) but knowing that my estranged husband is coming over tomorrow with our son, I dragged myself off of the houseboat to get some snacks and champagne etc. from the store. I couldn't manage it until just before 10pm, which for a nightshifter is early.

When I got to the car, I noticed I had a ticket. Strange since I pay for a monthly pass. Not nearly as strange when I reached over for it and saw that my pass had slipped partially into a vent and wasn't lying out for the guy to see. Hope I can get that straightened out after the New Year.

Trip to the store went okay but I got back and my key didn't work in the locked gate. It's about 32 degrees out there but it feels colder. Of course, my fellow dock mates are all early to bed, early to rise types and besides, I just moved here so I hadn't collected their numbers yet. Luckily about 15 minutes into this, I decided to call the landlord who tried to talk me through breaking in. Didn't work out but luckily he had one of the dock mates phone numbers. He called and the guy came out to rescue me.

I could have swam from the other dock but I don't even want to contemplate that. Now, even though I have a couple more items in the car, I decided they could stay in the car until tomorrow. It's less than refrigerator temp out there and I don't think I have any sensitive items out there anyway. I don't want to fight the lock again.

Ugh, 2012 can leave anytime.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

1. My dear tavalon...

What an awful evening...

I am so sorry to hear this. I hope 2013 will be much better for you.

[tavalon]

2. It has to be

if for no other reason than every day into the new year takes me one day further away from the horror that this year has become.

[Taverner]

3. Would a Virtual Hug help?

I could use a hug myself

[tavalon]

4. Couldn't hurt?

[Mojorabbit]

10. .

[Denninmi]

5. God, what is up with 2012?

It's been the year from Hell for so many of us, and just the most bizarre, out of left field shit that went down.

[tavalon]

6. Ayuh, I've noticed

Sure my personal stuff sucks but it seems to have sucked for so many. It's been about 11 years since I've had a year so awful. No deaths in my immediate circle but we've still got 23 hours and besides, even with my childish desire to remove 2012 from the scene, there's nothing to indicate that next year will be better.

One foot in front of the other. That's about all I can do.

[Denninmi]

7. It has to be better for me, I couldn't take worse.

I hope it can be better for you, too.

[JNelson6563]

8. Good riddance 2012!

I too have had a pretty crappy year and look forward to brighter days ahead. May we all see a big improvement!



Julie

[Lordquinton]

9. Fighting depression is a full time job

and sometimes staring at the wall is a step up from other things that could be going on. I commend you, I only just was able to accept that I was in the same boat (haha!) as you, and it's made it marginally easier to get out of bed.

[tavalon]

11. And here I thought it was the otter

I kid. I need to remember that other people have it far worse. I get to see my kid today. I'm hoping I'll be able to hide my sadness and anger while he's here.