I think I will go back to Tucson period.
But how is the question.
They are coming up with ways to get as much money from me for all kinds of stuff. They keep saying that I need to just stop being silly and learn to live with it. Sorry I can't.
I can pay back the money they paid for the ticket and half of what sis # 1 paid for the new screen. She did say because she left our nephew alone with it to go visit the neighbors, when she said she would watch him, she would pay half. Now she has altered the plan and now she says if I only pay half she get the laptop when I upgrade. Or since it is sentimental to me I can pay full price.
My other sis wants me to move in so I can pay her bills. She can't seem to budget at all!
In 2&1/2 checks I can have them paid off. I was thinking of getting 2 more checks and then give two weeks notice. Then get bus ticket back.
Get there and then start hitting the shelters. I still have my bus pass for Tucson so I can load it when I get there. I can do the same thing as I did here and flood the market with applications. That way, once I land something, I can pay the Salvation Army 33% of it to stay there while I get on my feet.
I can also get better mental health there than here. I was told that all they can do here is give some pills and hope. They had my paperwork from when I had the breakdown in Tuscon. PTSD from all that happen with my mom's death, then the tornado, being homeless and my (ex) SO's health.
They said that, and I agree, I was getting better help there than they can really offer here.
Yep, I have to get back. I am just getting worse here.
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They are the ones that wanted nothing to do with me when I moved out on my own. The same man that is supposed to be my father, the one that after I reached him said, " Why are you alive?" after the Tornado. He apparently had some sort of life insurance policy on me for some time. Not sure how exactly, but he loss a chunk of change when I popped up alive.
I was so distraught when all hell broke loose that I took any safety net I saw. And it is a reason my (ex) SO won't talk to me, He saw it as going to the enemy.
And they are trying to tell me that I "Need to 'realized' I just can't be a strong person. If I was I would still be there. I need to just find a guy, have kids and do what a woman is supposed to do". (Direct quote from sis #1 and dad)
No, I need to get out of here.
ADD: And the Facebook thing where I found out the were telling everyone I was murdered in Tucson.
The list goes ON! Why did I think they were of help?
If no torture wait for something better.
Advice from hunter, who, long time ago, was living in his immobile automobile in a church parking lot.
Don't care what other people think, even family. Maybe especially family if they don't understand. I was lucky there... I was never "disowned." Even crashed and burned they'd still feed me, just like they would any hungry person who appeared on their doorstep. Porch, pad, sleeping bag. No problem.
When you are hungry and homeless and away, that's when things get "real." I've never been that for more than a few weeks, and whenever it happened I became a very affable fellow as opposed to my usual very prickly self.
Yep, like a stray dog, I'd wag my tail for a stale taco...
And eventually day would come I'd get my life back together.
