I don't believe I'm going to see my best friend alive again.
She texted me the other day and told me she was very ill and had been in the hospital. Then she called me this evening, needing to come over and borrow a little money. When she got here I almost started crying- she was literally half the size she'd been a month before. She could barely take a step, and I could barely hear her when she tried to talk. Even as I hugged her I was frightened I might hurt her, she was so fragile.
It's no doubt cancer- as fast as it's eating her up it's probably pancreatic. She didn't tell me and I didn't ask, but it was obvious.
I don't think I'm going to get much sleep tonight. I've seen death approaching before, but this was extremely personal to me, and there's not a damned thing I can say or do to change it. I hope my hug helped, even if only for a brief moment. I know it's a hug I'll remember in my dreams the rest of my life.
Her name is Linda.
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Prayers going out for Linda tonight. 
Safe passage to your dear friend, Linda...
I can tell you with certainty that your hug helped her, and it will continue to do so until she's gone.
Such a tender gesture speaks volumes to both participants. I've been there, with WCGreen, when I saw him the last time.
I know you did her a world of good. Hang onto that good thought...
My deepest condolences on this traumatic loss, my good friend.
i am so sorry. peace and love to all who know and love her.
the first thing that came to my mind when i read this was: "tell her you love her. say it out loud. she knows but let her hear it. and thank her for being in your life, thank her for being your best friend."
please don't be offended--i certainly don't want to offend or upset you.
i just think if there is a way you can do this it might mean a lot to both of you.
sending both of you much love
as did the sentiment behind it. Trust me - it was felt and known. Even if not in the immediate, it registered as intended, my friend.
My best for Linda! If that means she needs to fly free, please be at peace with that and know you made a difference when it counted the most.
Love,
A Cancer Survivor
Rest easy Linda, you were loved
That is really awful. Linda