Op-Ed: "The Real Me"
by Sarah McBride, outgoing student government president,
American University
May 1
Yesterday, I ended my term as AUs student body president. I have learned and grown so much over the last year, both personally and professionally. As proud as I am of all of the issues we tackled together, the biggest take away, for me, has been the resolution of an internal struggle.
For my entire life, Ive wrestled with my gender identity. It was only after the experiences of this year that I was able to come to terms with what had been my deepest secret: Im transgender. ...
...To avoid letting myself and others down, I rationalized my decision: if I can make life a little fairer for other people, then that work would be so fulfilling that it would make me feel complete and somehow mitigate my own, internal struggles. I told myself that if I could make Tim worthwhile for other people by changing the world, that being Tim would be worthwhile.
As SG President, I realized that as great as it is to work on issues of fairness, it only highlighted my own struggles. It didnt bring the completeness that I sought. By mid-fall, it had gotten to the point where I was living in my own head. With everything I did, from the mundane to the exciting, the only way I was able to enjoy it was if I re-imagined doing it as a girl. My life was passing me by, and I was done wasting it as someone I wasnt.
Link to entire essay:
http://www.theeagleonline.com/opinion/story/the-real-me/