☦ Here I go. Why, why, does much of what I set out to accomplish in a 'positive''

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vein turn into 'expletive' results. Then over and over spending time straightening it out for the intended results. Knock down, drag out.Taking a toll on me.

Sorry you lovelies, my sisters and brothers in humanity. I'm so tired out. I don't do repetition well at all.

I don't want to say what. Mb one test after another. I want my husband back.

[No Vested Interest]

1. Patience. We are human. We make mistakes. Always did, always will.

My hubby died 11 yrs ago. I handled most matters well because he had been ill for several yrs and I got used to doing it and all was well.
This past year, during Covid pandemic, my aging caught up with me. I am much slower and accomplish very little.
Now I ask my dear one to support me as he did in life.
He is my leading "patron saint."

Yours is there for you as well.
He will lift you up.

Be well.

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3. Yes, I know. I call on him pretty much daily. Yes, they have 'knowing'

even though in another realm.

I don't need a cushy life. But I go from sorta acceptance to I hate this.

46+ years with a somebody and then gone in a split second.

My sister, may you receive God's choicest blessings henceforth and forevermore. ♥️

[NBachers]

2. My observation, and it's only mine, is that- turning your life towards positive outcomes, and

advocating for yourself that way, makes you a target for occurrences that will strive to turn you away from the path you've chosen.

I've found that I can only negotiate this minefield by saying to myself, "One foot in front of the other." I can't attack the enormity of it all. I can only force myself to take one baby step at a time.

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4. I have a cottage/shabby chic whitewashed board sign in dining area:

"Let whatever you do today be enough."

Now to putting that into practice, there's
the rub.

Yes, it seems the further I go, the behinder I get.

[NBachers]

5. I've seen days when I shuddered when I grabbed the door knob to leave in the morning,

because it took such superhuman effort to get to that point, and I knew the day would be filled with challenges way beyond what I had overcome so far.

Those days are far behind me. You will get there too.