Student loans forgiven today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The ultimate irony and benefit to me as that I got EVERYTHING forgiven
with the new one time payment adjustment if you consolidate everything to a direct loan through the feds/dept of ed
to comply with the new Dept of Ed new Save plan.

If the supreme court had upheld Biden's original plan, I would have only had about 1/3 of my debt wiped out.
*maniacal laughing*

thanks president Biden.

Drinks on me. I don't have a student loan payment this month!

I'm so tired of the msm treating Trump like he's a legitimate candidate.

This is why we are in this mess in the first place. They gave him all that air time.

I mean every lead in should mention his 91 felony counts before his name.

PBS KERA in DFW re-aired the Dec 5, 2023 Frontline about the Uvalde shooting.

It came on after Finding Your Roots. I steeled myself and made myself watch it. I didn't know it was going to be on, but I felt it deserved my time. And tonight I happened to be in a head space where I thought I could handle it.

It talked about what failed and why. They did a great job telling the awful story.

They didn't really show anything graphic, but the post incident interviews with the different police officers and body cam footage was...gulp...stunning and heartbreaking. There was hours and hours of footage the journalists had to sort through to get a good picture of what happened.

If you're in a spot where you can handle it, I highly recommend.

a friend sent me this article - good for spousal/partner loss

from Phycology Today

Questions That Arise as Grief Matures
A Personal Perspective: Coming to terms with a whole new life is complicated.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/widows-walk/202311/questions-that-arise-as-grief-matures?fbclid=IwAR3aiTFmQ0oFlwoxsR37UXPzdmhQYan8YjonXJxxZWlY6BCzLFsaHHhQ4D4

This might be helpful if you are 2/3 years in, or it might be too soon.

Peace.

OMG a nerd's dream website.

Can't sleep covid edition, but I can hear a bird outside.

I'm in the DFW area, but my part
doesn't always get the rain.

Anyway I'm on day 8 recovering from covid,
feeling better after the Paxlovid but still losing
steam pretty quickly. Kinda feels like flu and a nasty
sinus infection at the same time. So I started a steroid
pack yesterday just to help the gunk break up and I've been
on an antibiotic just in case because doc didn't want me ending up with a secondary pneumonia. But I digress.

So I'm tired, but freaking WIRED from the steroid. Only slept two hours. My point...

My husband died Aug 2021 and it's always on my mind. Sometimes I'm debilitated, sometimes I'm not.

I've been sleeping on the couch sitting up as I have sleep apnea and won't use my machine until my clean tubing comes in. So I'm up, wired, just put on a show, and I can hear this bird chirp, chirping at the dog bowl outside.

I forgot to dump it out last night, so the bird was taking advantage of the water. CHIRP CHIRP for about 5 minutes.
It's just now, that I'm able to have little joys again since my husband passed. Just the joy of a bird finding water in drought. He appreciated those kinds of things.

I've seen this same bird before. I'll go put some fresh water
and go ahead and get the dogs up for breakfast.

Thank goodness for the dogs.

Dammit I have covid

Hit me like a freight train this morning.
Had no issues prior.
Taking everything I can take including Paxlovid.
Just totally sucks and I feel like shit.
Feel sorry for me please.

Need suggestions...

I have several personal deadlines, in that these
tasks must be completed. Yes. It's becoming urgent.

I told my therapist this, and she said, what if you had to."

I told her I do have to, but that's not helping.
I tried to explain to her that I'm not quite non functional,
but damned near.

I just passed the two year mark without my husband, and
I did better the first year than now. I haven't even been able to work for a year. I can't make myself functional, but
there could be some major issues if I don't get a move on.

I don't feel depressed. I miss him like crazy of course,
it's that I can't get personal business done. And it's now starting to be a problem.

remember, of course we can't know - but we could still get superseding indictments

one can hope, but this is enough for today.

jack smith just said that: our investigation into others continues n/t