Trigger warning. Mention of suicide. Ramblings on why things are the way they are.

[LuckyCharms]

9. I'm so sorry about your friend.

I can imagine how you and others close to him feel about his death.

I've had a few people close to me commit suicide. it's almost impossible to wrap your head around unless you have experienced what clinical depression does to you.

It causes physic and physical pain. Actual pain that is felt like any other pain. And a person who is severely depressed can experience pain that is worse than breaking every bone in your body. Couple that with the fact that your mind is so scrambled up that the only thing you can focus on is what your mind is telling you, and what your mind is telling you is not even close to reality. For example, your mind may tell you that you have never been useful, and people you love would be better off with you gone.

Throw all of this bad stuff together into a toxic mental soup, and suicide seems like a reasonable way to make all of it stop.

I am also aware of suicides that are caused by factors that are different than what I just described. These are sudden suicides where it seems that people just casually say "fuck it" and kill themselves for no reason that can be analyzed.