After JFK Conference, when I got home, I felt like RFK.

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40. My condolences

A sudden unexpected loss is the worst. There are so many sad people in his orbit because he was a good man. Family friends and colleagues will miss him for the rest of their lives, as is natural when the loss is so big.

I found out only recently Thom Hartmann is a JFK assassination expert - saw him on a history/military channel show and learned a lot of new stuff.

Do you have any opinion on Jesse Ventura's JFK Assassination book? I like Jesse, even though he's not a big hit here on DU.

I lost my wife 17 days ago, after her year long battle with cancer. We made the most of our remaining time together and we both knew the clock was ticking. I am happier it happened this way. I was with her 24/7 in the last months of her life, putting everything else on hold. She died next to me in bed and she did not suffer. She was comfortable with her own death since I met her and I hope it's meeting her expectations.

My sister lost her husband suddenly in 1993 and the sadness and regrets are with me every day. Bill married Pat in 1964, when I was ten, and he was my big brother that helped me with my life for decades. There are so many regrets with a sudden death. Why didn't I call more? Why did I take him being there for granted? How can I get through my life without him?

I guess the best way to honor and remember them is to get my life back on the ball. I am not on top of my game right now and haven't been for a long time.

Octafish - it is clear you will honor your friend by pushing your journalism to heights you never thought possible. Your friend would want you to do that. Or just be happy. All our departed loved ones would certainly want that for us all.

-jim