If you are feeling suicidal.....

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7. it is highly unlikely that you will be "locked up"

it is extremely difficult to involuntarily commit someone. just saying that you wish to die is not enough. saying that you want to kill someone else, maybe, but not that you wish to take your own life.
people shouldnt worry about that.
they may offer to admit you. and it would probably be a good thing to accept a little time away from your life. likely only a few days.

it is a hard step to take to ask for help. to reach out. it is truly frightening.
you will be asked some hard questions. at first. that is really the worst part. telling someone you dont know things that you may have never said out loud.
the questions are kind of shocking. to hear these things spoken. but by the time you get to the end of the questions, you will realize you are talking to someone who is not shocked by your deep fears.
it gets easier from right there.

just saying it out loud is the hardest but best thing you will ever do.

from there is gets better for most people.

they will probably give you something like xanax to help you calm down. maybe something to help you get some sleep.
decisions about long term meds are for the next day.

it is both letting go of control and gaining control at the same time.

dont be afraid. reach out.

and btw, du has a great mental health support forum. some of the sweetest people in this community. and a wealth of knowledge and experience. a great place to ask questions from folks who have been there.

peace.