Suicide hit the mind today

[vercetti2021]

I woke up in one of the darkest moments I've had in years. Everything hit me at once. Not being accepted because of my body, being annoying and overbearing to others. Always trying my hardest to be involved in other people's lives I really love, my weight (400), my testosterone issues, losing my job because of a scare at work, not seeing people I love and well being isolated.

I came close to bottles of meds. You can imagine why I got rid of my guns. Someone like me shouldn't have never owned one. I'm struggling hard and I turn to here. My mother is what prevents me from going through with it. I can't imagine the pain I'd inflict on her. But I hate this war and I want it to be over.