in your situation. I had an embarrassing day 3 weeks ago. I work full time but my husband is 10 years older and disabled from COPD. He fell last month and broke his hip ending up hospitalized 10 days. He was extremely confused and agitated for days after surgery; it was pure hell to see him like that and I was very worried. By day 5 postop he finally got better mentally and I was needed at work, so I drove to my office where we have an attached concrete parking structure. I know I was preoccupied and not sleeping well but thought I was ok to drive. As I was pulling into a parking spot I hit the gas instead of the brake, hitting a concrete wall extremely hard. I had bruises on my chest where the seat belt restrained me and the force jolted my neck badly.
I was SO embarrassed I wanted to crawl in a hole and hide. I really hated myself for doing such a stupid thing. Isn't it funny how we hold ourselves to a higher standard than those around us? I beat myself up about my accident for many days. I find it's so much harder to for me to forgive myself when I make mistakes, as opposed to forgiving others.
I've rambled too much. Hope you are healing, you're among friends at DU.
Here's a sincere hug: 
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