What the Hell is happening to me? I can't stop crying. I cry when I am happy I cry when I am sad

[Maraya1969]

10. I just thought of something that I did not think was that important. I had a bad relationship

with my brother. We did not talk for 2 years, (he is a MAGA)

But he died in July. I think that I am upset because I had alway wanted to go back to when we got along and he liked me. I remember talking to my mother about it; we were trying to figure out why is didn't like me anymore. He did some really shitty things to me over the years, (of course I am bisexual and that is just not acceptable in his group) he did apologize to me a year or some.

My mom is dead, my father is dead and my brother is dead. I am the last surviving person in my immediate family.

Maybe it is grief I hadn't thought about it before. He died in July