The death of Nex Benedict has me extremely bothered

[vercetti2021]

I hope this goes to show some who don't understand someone being trans or NB is not something to just brush off. Kids are in danger at a much more higher level than us adults. We adults can take the shit, children cannot. Their peers are fucked up little monsters raised by even worse monsters.

They were 16, just like Brianna Ghey was. These kids had a full life ahead of them, they were lucky to start so young as I wish I did at their age. These two deaths have me absolutely so angry that I've started to last out at transphobic people left and right because I'm tired. I'm tired of being constantly attacked and dehumanized. Today I was called a freak by some fucking dickhead at the shooting range I go to and I fucking snapped. I was about to fight this fucker in the parking lot, but they walked away and of course I said something quite harsh I won't say the words here and he came storming at me. I ended up throwing a leg up and shoving this asshole away from me with all the force I could. But somehow its my fault because I'm a hot button issue. No I'm a fucking human trying to goddamn survive.

I'm so tired, I'm tired of fucking fossils telling me who and what I am when they don't know shit. This is why trans people are arming themselves. We are tired and we are done being statistics. I've become what those gun humpers have been doing, hoarding weapons because I'm afraid. I will admit it finally. I am fucking afraid of what will come. And what I will have to do in order to survive if the worst comes to pass. I've become more and more empathetic due to the hate and more cold towards strangers and people in general.

Being trans isn't what I choose, it's what I am. I wouldn't be if I could, but that isn't a possibility. Living as a man was horrible and felt imprisoned. Rather die as I am now than live a life being someone I wasn't. These fuckers really want a fight, then I'm more than happy to give them a fight. I just want people to understand that. We are people too, we have every fucking right to exist and be happy. Our lives matter, but those on the right. Fuck them and their hateful lives they have chosen to have. They had a choice, I didn't.