I think I'm doing really well, and good has come out of bad.

[Denninmi]

I sure wouldn't want to ever go through something like this again, but it seems that a lot of good in my life is coming out of the experience. For one thing, I have lost a lot of fears and inhibitions about people, about doing things outside of myself, well, about living a real life. Doing things I never would of dreamed of doing even just months ago, and loving it. My mental fog is clearing, my physical health is a lot better (well, if you don't count the pain from today's training session ). I kinda like the lamictal, it seems to really be cheering me up, and the fact that it's dirt cheap at Costco doesn't hurt, either.

Mostly, though, I learned the lesson of "be good to yourself". And that is a big one.

I'm even checking out the ladies about my age at the gym (ok, not in a creepy way, I promise). Just looking, but some day I may really get my courage up, who knows ...