From bad psychiatrist to worse?...

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6. That 'bad review' is neither

Ignore it. It's just internet garbage.

Alcohol is one nasty fucking drug. I'm troubled that you self-medicate with it. It appears that you are not on a steady med regiment. If that's the case then the meds are useless. It's not like taking an aspirin for a headache. There is no magic pill but if you don't work toward finding meds that help you then all the psychotherapy in the world won't matter.

Yes, your parents are enablers. My youngest brother is 50 years old and living with my mother in a medicaid facility. My mother was (and still is) an enabler to my brother. His life was destroyed by her misguided 'love' and he has no where he can go. Eventually my mother will die and he'll be forced to live on the street.

Remember how you felt when you went out with a camera? Don't let the good moments fade. You have it in you to do better. But quit fucking drinking. Alcohol can, quite literally, kill you. I can tell you this; if you have an alcohol related event that lands you in a psych ward you may be there for quite awhile.