From bad psychiatrist to worse?...

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12. That's good news, Locut0s

And I don't mean to come across as too authoritarian, as I have my weaknesses, too - sweets, in my case.
But I do believe there is a place where you have to draw a line, and likely alcohol is one for you.
No one knows your vulnerabilities better than yourself, and you are self-aware enough to know, according to your comments.

Be kind to yourself.
Keep busy.
If you're not working, volunteering in some manner would give a certain structure and meaning to your days.
You could, and maybe should start out small; you could always add on.
If you find a certain activity is not a good fit, just accept it as that, not a reflection on yourself.

We're here, and only wishing good outcomes for you.