hey guys. how is every one?

[hunter]

8. I've never enjoyed a life that's not twisted in some way.

Oft times it hurts.

It seems like I'm a very lucky human being.

I've never considered myself not "free." That's probably some clueless autistic spectrum disability. Like the relative at family picnics and who stared silently at the ants crawling up and down the trees.

Or a great aunt, subsidized by family, who never went anywhere, living between her apartment and the grocery store. (Sadly, she did not write, or talk much.)

But my fear is that it's the depression thing. Been homeless, been hurting, and times I've felt like dropping dead on the streets wouldn't be such a horrible thing.

I take powerful nasty meds with irritating side effects for that, and they do work, more or less.