It's a day I have to crush somebody. Talk me down, please.

[polly7]

1. Take some deep, calming breaths, Hunter.

I don't think you're wrong at all to attribute those horrors to society .... it's overwhelming at times how cruel we can be to one another. Trying to make sense of it all in your head means you care ... maybe too much (I never thought that was possible before the last few years, but I'm trying to justify it to myself now.) I went to see my doctor yesterday because my anxiety was getting bad .... it does that when I see all the shit in the world I have no control over, especially wars and conflict that affect so many innocents. It makes my blood boil ... but I'm helpless.

My doctor actually sang to me. About God, and then went on about what a good, strong person I am. Which is ironic as I don't believe much of that at all anymore. He talked of being lucky that I wake up every morning, etc. etc. etc. Which was not exactly what I wanted to hear, however true it might be for most people. It's so easy to lose faith in the goodness of life and people, very hard to get it back. How about a virtual hug? I know how hard it is some days ... I hope things improve for you soon.