Like a tiny spark can live inside of us for a lifetime waiting for a place, a scent, an event, a sound, etc to burst into a flame and scorch us again and again with its intensity. It does tend to get a bit easier over time but something can happen and *boom* the spark ignites and we're left once again with our heart yearning for the loved one missing from our lives.
The holidays and dealing with the loss of a very close loved one, such as a parent, are particularly difficult because our emotions often are close the surface and so many of our memories are built on things from this time period from before the time we can first remember.
Be gentle with yourself and know there are some of us out here who care and empathize with what your going through. 
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