This is painful to hear. But there are millions of people like John

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3. Huntington's is a horrible disease.

It's the disease Woody Guthrie died of.

Movement disorders
The movement disorders associated with Huntington's disease can include both involuntary movement problems and impairments in voluntary movements, such as:

Involuntary jerking or writhing movements (chorea)
Muscle problems, such as rigidity or muscle contracture (dystonia)
Slow or abnormal eye movements
Impaired gait, posture and balance
Difficulty with the physical production of speech or swallowing
Impairments in voluntary movements — rather than the involuntary movements — may have a greater impact on a person's ability to work, perform daily activities, communicate and remain independent.

Cognitive disorders
Cognitive impairments often associated with Huntington's disease include:

Difficulty organizing, prioritizing or focusing on tasks
Lack of flexibility or the tendency to get stuck on a thought, behavior or action (perseveration)
Lack of impulse control that can result in outbursts, acting without thinking and sexual promiscuity
Lack of awareness of one's own behaviors and abilities
Slowness in processing thoughts or ''finding'' words
Difficulty in learning new information
Psychiatric disorders
The most common psychiatric disorder associated with Huntington's disease is depression. This isn't simply a reaction to receiving a diagnosis of Huntington's disease. Instead, depression appears to occur because of injury to the brain and subsequent changes in brain function. Signs and symptoms may include:

Feelings of irritability, sadness or apathy
Social withdrawal
Insomnia
Fatigue and loss of energy
Frequent thoughts of death, dying or suicide
Other common psychiatric disorders include:

Obsessive-compulsive disorder — a condition marked by recurrent, intrusive thoughts and repetitive behaviors
Mania, which can cause elevated mood, overactivity, impulsive behavior and inflated self-esteem
Bipolar disorder — a condition with alternating episodes of depression and mania
In addition to the above symptoms, weight loss is common in people with Huntington's disease, especially as the disease progresses.

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/huntingtons-disease/symptoms-causes/syc-20356117


I've read stories about some people who had Huntington's. Sometimes before they are diagnosed people think that they have been drinking (sometimes they are also drinking because of the way they feel) and they are often divorced and abandoned by their families because the families don't know their psychiatric symptoms make the family think they are just being mean drunks.