... is that my higher self comes through in many ways, some of which are my angels, guides and teachers. I hear it in songs, sometimes in pictures, even in the words of another. There are times when my husband is saying something and I get a slight 'tap' and I know that means "pay attention here". Your high self "talks" to you in whichever way you are open to receive it. (IMO)
~ to the OP: Your intuition is the one asking the questions here - always urging you to listen to that voice even if others (ex) have told you it's wrong. When I get my emotions all tangled up and can't discern what is my ego self or my higher self talking, I use my pendulum. My agreement with my guides and teachers is that I act (or sometimes DON'T act) based on the information I get using it. Even when it's hard, I trust the info that comes through. And you know what? I've never gone wrong when I listen. When I don't? Well, those lessons keep showing up. :)
Trust yourself - start small and gain confidence back. And keep asking for guidance to come through clearly in whatever way you will be able to notice it. There is no one way it can come through. I usually ask to see something - a blue balloon, for example. I even posted about that on my blog (
http://snarkypants.com/2009/10/07/blue-balloons/) - the key part is paying attention.
Here's the text of the Blue Balloon post:
While it’s true that I am clairaudient (i.e.: I can hear guides, teachers and departed loved ones speaking), there are times even I need outward signs that they’re with me and we are working on stuff together. Such has been the case of late. I’ve had a few things rolling around in my head that I’ve pondered to death. (I am a world class ruminator, y’all!) And sometimes, even I need a sign to keep the junk from overtaking the truth.
Such was the case yesterday morning. I asked my angels for a sign – a blue balloon – to let me know I was on the right track and all is well. Usually, I ask and then just forget about it. They are good at reminding me about those signs. As I was driving home yesterday, I realized I hadn’t seen my blue balloon and decided to fret about it out loud. I said “If I don’t see one by tomorrow, I will know things suck.” (I’m a cheery sort, am I not?) I heard the words “Can you just trust us?” and I replied (out loud because I am alone in car) “I’m afraid to. Afraid that it won’t be what I want.” and again I heard the word “Trust”. Grudgingly, I said “okay okay okay”.
There’s a jogging path that runs along the road I drive to get to my house and something caught my eye on that side. Don’t know what it was but I looked to my right quickly and there it was – my blue balloon. Someone had put up a bunch of balloons and they were in various stages of deflation but clear as day, there was my balloon. I’m a dork. I cried. Because they’ve never, ever failed me when I’ve asked for a sign of this kind.
So, watchword for the day is TRUST. And blue balloons. And cake. (We’re having a birthday at the office.) But mostly, TRUST.
And so it is.
(P.S. signs come in all kinds of ways – I hear songs on the radio, books have fallen open for me – you actually do get to ask for what kind of sign you want. Try it and see. What have you got to lose?)