I'm supposed to be satisfied with 'being here' WTF does that mean?

[HereSince1628]

Met with my psychiatrist today, basically to tell him I'm not going to use meds to over-ride my depression because rather than treating symptoms I want to treat the causes.

His response was, for "people in places like you," just being here is a therapeutic success.

I'm a schizotypal borderline with major depressive disorder...thats the place I'm in, so what the hell does just "being here" mean? Showing up at appointments? Not killing myself? What????????????

I gotta say, that wasn't one of the most rewarding 30 minutes I have ever lived.

[HereSince1628]

1. And this wasn't one of the most rewarding posts, either. n/t

[Tobin S.]

2. I wouldn't try that for a serious mental illness

Knowing why you have an illness doesn't stop you from being sick. I basically know why I have my illness, but that hasn't made me better. I know that for sure because I stopped taking my medication for a couple of days recently just to see. Yeah, still batshit crazy.

Your doctor sounds like he used a poor choice of words. I guess he could also be a prick, I don't know. You can treat an illness with psychotherapy and it might make you somewhat better, but I wouldn't stop taking those meds. Go see a psychologist as well as your psychiatrist. Working together they might make your life better.

[HereSince1628]

3. Just to be clear, I'm not advocating anyone else go off their meds.

I went on celexa because depression can interfere with a person's will to follow both diabetes and cardiac maintenance guidelines. After bypass surgery, all my care providers were telling me because I have chronic MDD I was particularly susceptible to that...

Unfortunately, when I went from starter levels to the maximum recommended dosage the celexa I became nonchalant about my health and gained ten pounds in a month, my blood pressure rose a couple of points with each pound and I lost tight control of my blood glucose. So, for me, in addition to the celexa treating symptoms rather than cause of the depression, I felt the celexa also contributed to the opposite outcome for my other health concerns that got me started taking it.

It took a month to work down the dose and off of the celexa and to be completely free of the withdrawl symptoms.

[undergroundpanther]

4. I hate "being here"

Because assholes run rampant here,good hearted and sensitive people are dis-empowered,and the world is a futile mess where life has to eat life to live and die anyway it's a sick cycle.There are so many things about this world that are beyond fucked up,It seems this world,this pretty little black iron prison tortures life here physically,emotionally,if the bloody claws of nature aren't enough to make you weep we got abusers,sociopaths and narcissists destroying other's integrity and tying up our better side,eroding sanity and justice continually for no other reason than they choose to and they will get away with it.Evil rules here and it will continue..until enough of the not evil people stand up and say enough of that shit.

"being here" is living in a cage too small to hold me,one surrounded by sharks looking for an arm a finger to devour ,with idiots in wetsuits randomly poking me with spears, I hear the cries of others pain and frustration,all while I try to breathe underwater.Which I cannot do.

I DO hate "being here".Here SUCKS.“Why kill yourself? Life will do it for you.”