i had a panic attack today

[knowbody0]

leaving my shrink's office walking through the lobby, i found myself face to face (less than a foot) with my very own personal boogie man; it could have been his twin. my ears were ringing, my knees buckled and i fainted. when i came to, he and my shrink and the receptionist were hovering over me. i had even pissed myself.
so....................he took me back into his office and kept saying it's ok, you are safe, no one will hurt you here, i'll walk you to your car.
what are the odds of this happening in his clinic? the boogie man i speak of is a serial killer who left me for dead. will i ever not fear what i know of evil? there is no pill. there is no book. but there is DU, where i can post the experience.

[mopinko]

1. i can only say wow.

is this person in prison? i can't imagine carrying around that kind of evidence of evil. wow.
i can only offer you :hugs: and say that if you want to post more about it, i will read it. i know there are some people here who probably can't read it. so maybe you should make sure your subject line warns people.
:hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:

[knowbody0]

4. yeah, he is locked away

thanks for the hugs and you are right about the warnings. i live with memories i dare not share, ....... mopinko, you are a really loving and warm person, i really hope you and your family find balance.
thank you

[mopinko]

9. and i hope the same for you

and thank you.

[Droopy]

2. I wouldn't call that an irrational reaction

If I came face to face with someone that looked like a person that tried to kill me I probably would have had the same reaction that you had and I have never had a panic attack.

[knowbody0]

5. thanks, Droopy

i've learned that body mind spirit and soul are very connected, and protect one another. embarassing as hell to piss myself. hope it never happens again

[Maraya1969]

8. Oh don't worry about that - doctors are used to that stuff

Besides I once went to a chinese restaurant and as I was leaving I fainted, hit my head on the cigarette machine and then got up and started puking all over the place! It must have been quite a sight for the patrons coming in!

[ernstbass]

3. You poor thing

I can't imagine having that experience. If it had to happen, I'm glad it was in the shrink's office rather than in the parking lot. Be extra good to yourself tonight.

[knowbody0]

6. thankyou, ernstbass

you are right about being in the shrink's office. he called me last night and again today, making me believe he truly cares. for that, i am thankful.

[EFerrari]

7. If it had to happen, better that your doctor got to see, to know

what you two are dealing with.

Sending lots of love your way.

Beth