Rambling rubbish to follow

[stillcool]

April 8th was my 15th sober birthday.I entered into psycho-rama shortly after. It's strange how anniversary's bring all the ghosts to gather round and reminisce. The theme this year, maybe every year..is lies. No wonder they made it a commandment. Speaking of which, someone once told me that the 'crown of thorns' in religious dogma represents thoughts. And the 'thou shalt not kill' one was described as you can not kill...it's impossible to kill...people never really die. Memory is a bitch. Which fits right into my ghosts that are visiting. Some have been dead for a long time...some..like my mother...I never even knew. She is a total fabrication...maybe they all are. I left everything and everyone I knew and burned every bridge that could possibly lead to me. It was necessary. Comparatively I'm on a different planet, practically reincarnated, but the pull back there is so strong sometimes. I even imagine a fairy-tale type quality to the life that was. I can still after all this time pick up the old lies and wear them...just like Cinderella's slipper.

[EFerrari]

1. 15. In my culture, we'd deck you out in a big pink dress and throw

a huge party.

Congratulations, stillcool47. And, fwiw, I tend to keep a flyswatter handy on anniversaries.

:)

[stillcool]

3. thank you...pesky critters they are...

I do some mental skeet shooting when they get out of hand.

[DemExpat]

2. It is startling to me how such "rambling rubbish" can bring forth such

deep stirrings of poignant truths that apparently abide within a lot of us here.....
thanks for sharing, and congratulations on your 15th stillcool!

All that saves me is a focus on looking into loved ones' (people or animals) eyes and connecting with their souls in that dimension that can't be distorted.
This is the bottom line for me, and what I have found to be true and good....and lasting.

DemEx