It's 3:06 am

[undergroundpanther]

And here I sit.
I am anxious sad frustrated..a ton of mixed feelings.I am tired but I can't sleep.I am pissed about that Executive order putting us one disaster away from dictatorship.
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=389x945406

Add in the warnings my shrink gave me awhile ago about forced micro-chipping maybe in the future, those haldol/psych drug implants,

and add in the shit that went down the day my mom moved out..I think it upset me more than I even let myself admit to myself.
http://www.unknownnews.org/05D31-J06d-1231Panther.html

On top of all this..This news..
Today I also found out my diagnosis disqualifies me for continued case management.At the end of this month I'm on my own..I guess Being on ssi all your adult life due to Pstd and dissociating my ass off,forgetting things like remembering to EAT, or forgetting what I do during my time awake, and being suicidal half the time and having no reliable transportation, stuck in the suburbs with no social supports out here in a town I hate,all alone.. That apparently isn't bad enough to qualify for case management . Don't they know I went to a day program recently? That must mean I am having problems..Hellooo!

But no it means nothing because bush has to blow as much money as possible to kill people and get no bid contracts for his buddies for his stupid ass Warrrrrr..

I wish that this stupid greed bean counter bullshit the state is pulling,over evidence based treatment and pidgeonholing people in categories of who is deserving and who is not, based on diagnosis and bigotry would cease.I wish the outright this robbery of the nations treasury by the re thugs the sold out Dem's,all the dishonest assholes in the MH system and the corporations and this stupid war that is going on and on just to destroy the social safety net,to STOP.

I want the ultra wealthiest parasite pirate plundering to be forced to a halt.I want the wealthy elites to suffer because of the damage they do.I want the poor the just, the progressive to confiscate all their wealth away from them. I want this whole move to dictatorship to reverse.I want the wannabe dictators and kings overwhelmed by a furious mob that will grab them from their high places beat them,drag them to their deaths like Mussolini was.That's what tyrants and ultra rich oligarchies deserve. But I cannot do it myself. I say all I can to try to wake people up to this I post here I write on Unknown,I speak up wherever I go.. but it ain't enough to break the trance. I guess self-deception for self-preservation is the rule of the day,For these "good germans".

And since I don't see riots breaking out in response to what Bush is doing,I wonder if anyone rally gives a rats ass enough to say to the boss man fuck you and your goddamn profits, I gotta save my country from hell itself and fight against fascist pigs..But I see people doing their jobs, acting like every things ok,trying to survive and going home to their little isolated houses and collapsing of exhaustion. Good Germans are all around me.

I don't see anyone taking over CNN by force to get the warnings out..I feel so powerless,so frustrated and I feel threatened.


"Although the friendly fascists are subversive elements, they rarely see themselves as such. In pursuing their mutual interests through a new coalition of concentrated oligarchic power, people may be hurt-whether through pollution, shortages, unemployment, inflation, or war. But that is not part of their central purpose. It is the product of invisible hands that are not theirs."

Damn right not my hands,Who represents people like me me? No one does. Sometimes I wanna go to sleep and never wake up.I don't want fascism.But everyone acts like they are in a trance..I hate this shit.And I hate bush-co.

"We can have democracy in this country or we can have great wealth in a few hands, but we can't have both."Louis D. Brandeis


Fascist Fuckers.



The future..
I can see the future
and the future holds nothing for me...
I can see the future
and it makes me wish that I was blind...

all the hype that intoxicates us tonight,
all the crap out of which we manufacture our lives...
the rapist that's inside every businessman...
you're screaming for your life
but your mouth is gone...

I'm falling into despair and I am fighting it by staying on line.


" America is run largely by and for about 5,000 people who are actively supported by 50,000 beavers eager to take their places. I arrive at this figure this way: maybe 2,500 mega corporation executives, 500 politicians, lobbyists and Congressional committee chairmen, 500 investment bankers, 500 partners in major accounting firms, 500 labor brokers. If you don't like my figures, make up you own . . ."
I am convinced his figures are far too small. If there are 4,000-6,000 at the top, they are probably able to deploy at least five times as many in executive management; who in turn operate through at least ten times as many junior and contingent members. My total ranges between a quarter and a third of a million. Even without adding their dependents, this is a far cry from a small handful of people...."

" The greatest difference between the Ultra-Rich and the rest of us is that most of them are addicted to sensory gratification on a grand scale. In part, as Ferdinand Lundberg has documented, this gratification takes the form of palatial estates, fabulously furnished town houses, private art collections, exclusive clubs, summer and winter resort on many continents, membership in social registers, birth and burial under distinctive conditions, etc. It also involves an array of services going far beyond the ordinary housekeepers, cooks, gardeners, masseurs, valets, chauffeurs, yacht captains, and pilots of the large fleet of rich people's private aircraft. But above all, the valets of the ultra-rich also include expert executives, managers, advisers, braintrusters, ghostwriters, entertainers, lawyers, accountants, and consultants. Most of their services are more expensive (and far more sophisticated) than those enjoyed by the emperors, emirs, and moguls of past centuries. Some are freely given in exchange for the privilege of approaching the throne and basking in the effulgent glory of accumulated wealth. Most are paid for by others-either being written off as tax deductions or appearing as expenses on accounts of various corporations, banks, foundations, universities, research institutes, or government agencies. These payments for modern valet service can be unbelievably high. Indeed, one of the earmarks of the Ultra-Rich in America is that they even have millionaires-most of them involved in big business -working for them.."( All the quotes here are excerpted from the book Friendly Fascism by Bertram Gross)

I HATE HATE HATE the ultra rich,They don't DESERVE all they have,It costs the rest of us too much. We pay and pay all because of A BELIEF a trance!!But ooh you can't fight their system,can't piss off the parasite you depend on for a job..The ultra rich are useless appendages,parasite psychopath pigs and pirates.They are the problem, the pollution that ruins democracy, the ultra rich make everyone's life painful so they can have every whim satisfied.The rotten bloated worms on the Hill.I wish they'd all choke on thier caviar keel over and DIE. I wish the poor could confiscate what the ultra rich and their families and corporations have hoarded and share it with the world.. Why can't my desire for justice be fulfilled..