He is gone, the other half of my life died Friday. We were two

[yy4me]

halves of a whole. 45 years, through all of the ups and downs life had to throw at us and we made it. Plans are being made, my 2 girls are with me and all the family will be here tomorrow. I hope I can keep myself together for all of them. My husband was a remarkable man who loved everyone, who made friends with everyone. They will all remember him with great fondness. My heart is broken and I don't know how to get through this.

Please understand why I am posting this, I just need to talk to someone. Right now I am so alone, he is gone and I wish I was with him. My small family is devastated. It is so hard to plan final arrangements. My girls are a blessing to me because I could not do it.

I hope there is a special place where he is, someplace where he can keep an eye on me and know I love him so much and will for the rest of my life.

[qb]

1. I can offer you a hug.

My condolences.
:hug:

[blueraven95]

2. I'm so sorry

:hug:

[EFerrari]

3. I'm so sorry, yy4me.

Thank goodness for your girls.

I'm glad you posted and I hope you keep doing that during this time.

:hug:
:grouphug:

[DemExpat]

4. So very sorry.

Yes, please share your feelings here if you feel the need. :hug:

Condolences to you and your girls, and to all who love your man.

DemEx

[latebloomer]

5. Oh, that is terrible

Light and love to you and your family. :hug:

[hermetic]

6. I am so, so sorry.

I lost my other half several years ago so I totally understand. :hug: and feel free to reach out any time you feel the need.

[redqueen]

7. I'm so sorry...

[grasswire]

8. I'm so sorry to hear this.

There IS a special place where he is. He's in your heart. You know each other so well that you will always know what he's thinking and what he would say to you. You know how he would smile, and laugh, and just how he would look at any moment. That's living in your heart; with you all the time. I congratulate you on your long life together, and am so sorry he had to leave this physical world. Be strong, take care of yourself.

[wellstone dem]

9. I am so sorry

please remember that one of the reasons it hurts so much is because there was so much love. Please look for comfort in the memory of the love you two have. (I use present tense intentionally, as the love is still there, although his body is gone.)

[Bullwinkle925]

10. I am almost 9 months into my grieving process ...

I think I've been in shock for quite some time. Whenever I felt like visiting the death, I would somehow get my mind to go to other things. I have shut down and it is coming up now. I'm into group therapy and also seeing a grief therapist. This is the most horrendous thing to go through.
I find that the hours between 9PM - 5AM are the most difficult.
I wander around the house, or lay in the bed unable to sleep.
The future is not looking too bright (I'm sure that is the depression speaking) and I don't know what to do.
If you ever need a shoulder, or talk - you can definitely PM me.
:cry: :hug:

[mopinko]

14. get something to help you sleep

sleep and depression get into viscous cycles. there are safe effective sleep meds out there. they would really help you.

[Tab]

11. So, so, sorry

It's probably like half of you has been ripped away.

Lean on your family, let the arrangements go to the girls.

When my dad passed away, he had been with my mother for 40+ years. My brothers and I handled most of the arrangements. We couldn't ask our mom to deal with those on top of everything else. Let the girls do it for you - you're lucky to have them. I'm glad you're reaching out.

Again, sorry for your loss. Talk here anytime. Someone's always around.

[mdmc]

12. I am sorry to hear this

belated ...

How are things going for you now? Please keep us posted and keep writing. God Bless.

[Mnemosyne]

13. Just

:hug:

[terrya]

15. I'm so sorry.

It is so heartbreaking to read of a death of a loved one.

I'm very sorry for your loss. Please accept my sincere condolences.

:hug: