Oh shit, I just found out this evening that my brother's girlfriend

[Pool Hall Ace]

is dead. Possible suicide. :cry:

My brother woke up this morning and found his girlfriend unresponsive. She was pronounced dead at the hospital. There was evidence that she had combined alcohol and Darvocet. I asked him if she had taken his Darvocet (he had been given some following a recent medical procedure). He said no, it was her own. She had been dealing with a lot of pain.

She also had a recent nasty argument with her daughter. Daughter recently stated that she didn't want to talk to her mother again. It took my brother a while to get through to the daughter to let her know what happened, because she kept hanging up on him.

My brother made me promise I wouldn't do anything like that, so I did.

But you know what's really scary? Just this morning, I was thinking about suicide myself. It would be fairly easy to do. I cannot seem to find a job, no matter how hard I try. I don't know what I am going to have to do to get the shit to end. There are people who will miss me, but people are resilient and will get over it. My dog really keeps me from doing myself in. I was so upset when I found out that he was carrying my shoes around the house earlier this year when I was in the hospital. Not just my own dog keeps me going, but all dogs. There will always be a dog who needs me.

So I want to do something nice for my brother, perhaps a care package of some sort. We have another brother who doesn't speak to us (he's a freeper-type; we call him "Dick Cheney with hair), so I want to be there for my brother. Unfortunately, I can't afford to go see him right now.

He has his own daughter with him, and that is a good thing. Right now, I'm just still in shock. :cry:

[david13]

1. Hang loose. Easy does it.

The important thing is don't imitate the bad behavior, learn a lesson from it. That it isn't a solution.
Your situation sounds about like mine. About all that keeps me alive is my cat.
But there is a lesson here, ... what not to do.
Look for the positive, in your life. Rejoice in any thing positive, no matter how small.
dc

[Pool Hall Ace]

2. Oh, I'm not going to do anything right now. My brother needs me.

It's just scary how I was thinking about that this morning.

His girlfriend brought him so much joy. And I'm sorry she was in such pain. I didn't get a chance to get to know her, but I would have listened if she wanted to talk.

Right now, I'm just numb.

[mdmc]

3. thanks for posting

I think that we have all been there - feeling those feelings..
Courage and kudos for being there for your brother..

[EFerrari]

4. I'm so sorry, PHA.

:hug:

Keep us updated. When I went through my suicidal period, my family checked out so I'm glad to hear you and your brother have each other right now.

[fizzgig]

5. i am so sorry

:hug: to your brother and you