Just back from health jail--my SEVENTH stent!

[blondeatlast]

I was on a vacation we've waited over two years for when we had to call the paramedics in beautiful Huntington Beach.

I'm happy to to still be on this mortal plane, but frustrated as hell that no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to get myself healthy. I mean, I really do exercise fairly faithfully, try to eat well (hubby is a vegetarian, so that helps tremendously), and I can't seem to get ahead!

I'm only 46, and this is my seventh g--damned stent. I don't even look 46; most people think I'm much younger. But I took that "how old are you physically" quiz and they have me about (no joke) SEVENTY, thanks to the insulin dependence alone. I haven't even menopaused yet. I have an 8 year old son.

I despise this disease. I'm finding it increasingly difficult to stay positive about it. I only hang in there at times like these for my incredible kid and my wonderful and supportive husband.

I just had to rant==I'
m so damn frustrated I could run in circles screaming (if I had the energy right now).

[DemBones DemBones]

1. I'm so sorry. I understand how you feel.

I went for (another) 2-D echocardiogram yesterday and had to wait a long time, which made me feel rotten. I told my husband it really bothers me sometimes to be in such crummy shape at my age, knowing people literally decades older who are in better shape than I am. Like you, I still look young in my face but I don't even want to take the how-old-are-you-physically quiz. :-(

[blondeatlast]

2. Thanks for the kind words. I'm feeling tremendously better today.

I wrote that on a bad, bad night when I still was recovering.

Today I feel like the stents are supposed to make me feel--very much alive and vital, thank God!

It's a good thing, too, since hubby is off to Prague and Kuala Lumpur tonight for 2 weeks for business. I have family very nearby, so I feel pretty secure even with him leaving.

Son and I had planned to accompany him to Prague, but we'll be waiting for the next time (he needs to travel overseas quite often, so we'll have a chnace).