Cross post from the lounge

[raptor_rider]

Much thanks from AZ for me being able to post this. I believe that I will make it through with the help from you all!!!

I am an alcoholic. Just coming out. Too much wine at nights. I do not drink when the babies are up. I work 45 hours a week. However at night, I drink 4 glasses of wine at night. This weekend, I went overboard. I can go without, however, I get shakey, heart racing, upset stomach. I have read the forums, and know that I have the classic symptoms of an alcoholic. I do not want to be this way. Just speaking out. I know the lounge is a good place to help with problems. Again, not seeking medical advice, just support!

Much love,

r_r

[NMDemDist2]

1. welcome to our little corner of DU

we have plenty of lunacy around here, but we're crazy like foxes. :evilgrin:

we'll love ya and answer you questions and (virtually) hold your hand.

you just concentrate on NOT taking a drink today.

:hug:

[raptor_rider]

2. will need that hand tomorrow

Took the first day off from work for being so hungover. I know that this is the sign that I need to stop. I was able to stop cold turkey with my pregnancies with the boys these past few years. I however started back up with a vengeance after birth. I was a meth addict and a pot addict. I kicked those two for the sake of my job. However, I am drinking like a fish to cover those addictions. I just want to be free and clear of it all and life for my family, not my addiction. My husband is wonderful. Accepted my daughter as his own and we have had two sons since we were married. He drinks also, however much more responsible than I. Just one for him, me however I drink until I cannot drink anymore. I know that 4 glasses is not much, however, with my past addictions, this is showing the damage that I have done to my body and my drinking is only enforcing that.
I appreciate all the support that will be given.

[NMDemDist2]

3. There is a solution.

Almost none of us liked the self- searching, the leveling of our pride, the confession of shortcomings which the process requires for its successful consummation. But we saw that it really worked in others, and we had come to believe in the hopelessness and futility of life as we had been living it. When, therefore, we were approached by those in whom the problem had been solved, there was nothing left for us but to pick up the simple kit of spiritual tools laid at out feet. We have found much of heaven and we have been rocketed into a fourth dimension of existence of which we had not even dreamed. .....

If you are as seriously alcoholic as we were, we believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution. We were in a position where life was becoming impossible, and if we had passed into the region from which there is no return through human aid, we had but two alternatives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could; and the other, to accept spiritual help. This we did because we honestly wanted to, and were willing to make the effort.

that's just a little excerpt of the book "Alcoholics Anonymous"

there are other paths to sobriety, but that is the path that helped me, and I hope it will help you too. Check out this list, find a number near you and make the call. It can change your life, if you're willing......

http://alcoholism.about.com/cs/meetings/a/blaa.htm

[raptor_rider]

4. Sounds like

A Course In Miracles. I better look back into my book. We are all forgiving in the Course. It is all loving and forgiving. God has no bounds that we can cross that cannot be forgotten. This I hold true, and that God will forgive what I have done. This I must trust in and all that has been done.

[KitchenWitch]

5. There are some very similar concepts in AA to the Course.

:hug:

I suggest finding several meetings to attend, so you can meet some people that have been through it and reading the AA literature.

I am glad you are here.

[Withywindle]

6. Welcome!

:hi:

[Amelie]

7. I'm new, too

Really, really new. I wish I had some sort of mind-numbing words of inspiration, but I don't. Coming out helped me so much. Just learning that I'm not the first knee-walking, spit-slinging drunk was a comfort.

You. Are. Not. Alone. I promise you that there is at least one person on your block fighting the same fight. Second by second, sometimes. And if they aren't on your block, they're in my house.

BTW, there are self-deprecating angels out there who insist on finding people like us. And I am forever grateful for all you angels in disguise.

[FloridaJudy]

8. Welcome aboard!

Admitting you have a problem is the first step. I'd suggest trying several different meetings, until you find one that seems to be the right fit - I know the ones with a lot of Jesus talk make me uncomfortable, but YMMV.

We're a pretty supportive group here, so feel free to check in often.

[NYC_SKP]

9. I highly recommend DBT, Dialectic Behavior Theory, based treatment programs.

And happy to tell you more about my experience, if you like.

:thumbsup:

[Kajsa]

10. Welcome, RR!

You will find a lot of good sobriety and support
in our little group.

:)

Remember, it's One Day at a Time.

Sometimes you need to break it down- one hour at a time, etc.

Whatever gets you through today works.

Welcome, again.

:) :hug:

[Stuart G]

11. Wecome RR..you have come home..