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[SPKrazy]

I am I suppose a tough nut to crack in some ways. I've been clean and sober 23 years from alcohol and other substances.

I have another addiction that is not a substance, and it has taken me 20 years to get to the point that I am at where I am able to see a cause/effect reaction to how my acting out is related to my feelings.

I also see how my feelings lead to anger and other feelings in a way I never have before. Like I said, tough nut, whatever.

Had a situation where I very wrongly put myself in a bad situation at work and got myself in trouble for it. I struggled for a few days about why I was so angry. I was angry everywhere I found myself, including on DU.

It seems that my psyche is such that I can't deal with not being honest with myself. It took me some time to figure out that I wasn't being honest with myself. Then when I did, and I dealt with it, 100 lbs was lifted from my shoulders, my spirit and psyche retained a balance. Amazing, the steps, and the fellowship, and my spirituality have taken me light years from where I was.

thanks

:grouphug:

[NMDemDist2]

1. the problems may look different

but the answer is always the same eh?

I'm powerless over...... etc etc etc on through the list

Glad you feel better my friend

:hug:

[w8liftinglady]

2. many of us have multiple addictions...they are similar,in a way

I have alcohol,but also I was a work-out addict with an eating disorder.Anything to escape.Stick with your program...and us.I'm always a PM away.

[varkam]

3. You know, I have spent much of my life lying to myself.

If I were ever honest with myself, then it would've been impossible to continue on being an active addict.

Honesty with oneself, I think, is one of the major goals of any recovery program. I also think it is one of the hardest to achieve on a consistent basis as, for me anyway, it requires a constant awareness of your thoughts and feelings.

Best to you, SPK. :pals: