Reply #13: last place won't do [View All]

[Niccolo_Macchiavelli]

i have no problem with the kid beeing first. should it come to pass the kid would be my own first priority too. a second place for me must be achieveable though, if there shall be a relationship.

But since my chances with her are slim at best i'll just use the push of emotions to strenghten my roots and my foothold.

Friendship she has no matter what and help i will, all she has to do is to ask. but she knows that.

at the end of the year i'll let her know what an inspiration she has been and what i achieved with it (if not before).

monday is cancer testing on my part and i got an ill feeling about it. depending on the result the idea of winning her over and all that above will die with me - quite literally.