Reply #15: Lonliness stinks too. [View All]

[Deja Q]

I see couples hugging and kissing and talking, some even fondling (though by that point they should just get a bedroom or bathroom or car back seat or whatever...)

It hurts double if you see someone you really want to get with, for conversation or what have you.

I've had some events that may or may not top everybody's on DU, but they rank up there as being cruel, disgusting, or both. And if I posted some of the more colorful events, this response would get deleted. (Here are some hints: Molested by different 2 people, sexually assaulted by 1, and some very colorful set-ups and pranks pulled by classmates over the years. All of them hurt me right down to the core, but some were just vile.

But, to be succinct, I have found people to be deceptive and unkind. I probably am maladjusted/unbalanced/psychotic/whatever for still thinking that people are good and that in a properly constructed SOCIETY, people would behave better toward their fellow man (possibly because my own co-workers, as humans go, are quite decent people.) Actually, the fact that I won't end up like all the people who do because of what happened to them as a child should be something this cesspool of a society should applaud my willingness to conform and live through it all... (changed wording of final sentence in this paragraph in this edit. I was too harsh, though almost rightly so.)

Just be a recluse, be sure to have a copy of "Final Exit" on hand if you lose your job, and you'll be fine.