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I switch to Obama


by gigglinggirl

Thu Apr 24, 2008 at 07:15:49 PM PDT

In fact, I have already switched the day Clinton called Obama an elitist. That day, watching CNN and seeing Obama caught in between McCain and Hillary (whom I supported staunchly since the beginning of this election), I suddenly had my own Obama moment, and right there and then, I understood.

gigglinggirl's diary :: ::
It took me several good days, if not a whole week to analyse my feelings, and all the emotions rushing, starting in that little instant of my Obama moment. It was a beautiful moment. It felt good, and it felt right, and it only got better every day.

I am a woman, and feelings and emotions are very important, and while I analysed them, I became angry at myself, that those very emotions deceived me so badly. So far my gut feelings never betrayed me, and now I think they need more analysis from my left part of my brain.
Enough about them.
In that moment, Obama looked right into my eyes through the computer screen, and his eyes expressed deep sadness. He was trying to explain the "bitter" words to the roomful of people, and to the wider audience through the media. I understood what Clinton was damaging, and I understood that she just opened the gates to completely obliterate him in the coming weeks, and months in order to capture the power. I felt that what she is doing has little to nothing to do with her agenda she put forward to change the country. I had believed in her tenacity, strength, core beliefs to accomplish the impossible, but at that moment I saw the darker side of her, and that moment she lost me, and I gained Obama, and myself.
The Pennsylvania primary I watched through different lens. I wanted her to lose. I didn't see what I had seen before, I saw another person, a stranger who I felt deceived me.
I waged a whole campaign for her on another forum full of republicans, racists, and low information voters (an immigration related forum). I have been denigrated, humiliated, put down, and ridiculed for her. I have written several pro-HRC diaries at Kos which I joined a few weeks ago (now deleted except the first one). I have created a youtube video, a tribute for her. I ordered a sticker that is now going to be replaced by an Obama sticker. I haven't donated to her campaign much, but I have joined MyBarackObama.com a couple days ago and donated to him for the first time. On the Penn primary day.

I had refused to leave Kos, and I kept reading the various diaries, that eventually helped me understand.
In some sense, I realized that I have been walking towards Obama all this time. I never said anything really bad about him, always respected him, and it pained me that those two candidates and their supporters waged a war. I defended Obama when talking to cons and repugs, but I wasn't ready then yet.

My signature here at Kos says that what is beautiful in a desert is that it hides a well somewhere.
I've found my well. It is Obama. I am ready.

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update: wow! I am on the rec list- thank you everybody for your comments and a warm welcome.

http://www.dailykos.com/story/2008/4/24/214245/668/480/502929