Reply #5: Actually, I am in therapy [View All]

[LittleClarkie]

And the, um, wedding reception incident, was a bit of a wakeup call. Never go to one on an empty stomach, by the way, especially if it's open bar. That had never happened before, and I hope never again.

But I do have someone to talk to. She covered by my insurance, which is a blessing. Thanks for your support, guys, I appreciate it. It is getting better.

Even so, the thing that had me in sobbing hysterics last night wasn't the thought that I have a drinking problem. It was that someone would say even in jest that I would teach a seven year old how to do a shot.

When I told a friend about the comment, and his eyes got quite large. His first thought was that one of the boy's PARENTS taught him that technique. I hope not. That's a disturbing thought.

I think it's my Bush-voting, black-and-white seeing, Baptist friend who has a tendancy make these insensitive, esteem-deflating comments that had me in fits. She tend to make blanket comments based on limited information. Her father did the same to her, but she doesn't recognize it when she does it. He used to tell her she was too stupid to be an engineer, thinking that would motivate her. Instead, she believed him. So I know where the behavior comes from. But telliing myself that hasn't helped so far.

Actually, she's been a topic of a therapy session more than once too. It was just especially upsetting me last night. I guess between me and Elshiva it was sort of a domino effect. And I'm still hormonal woman for the second week in a row, so I'm sure that's part of it. And then there's the continued horror that is the Bush Admin. It tends to weight a person down after a while. It sometimes feels like we're a country of hate-mongers. How is THAT supposed to be Christian, I ask you.