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working-class conservatives seem incapable of acknowledging how much they're being screwed over.
This is true, and not just of working-class conservatives. But I think it's important understand why. I'm sure it differs from person to person, so I'll just tell you about me.
Until recently I was just going about the business of my life. Then the war started, and all the anti-war people I heard on TV said stupid things. But since there was so much opposition, I began to search on the Internet for intelligent reasons. It didn't take too long to find more information than I was looking for, not only about the war, but also about the overall state of the country.
It was emotionally devastating to me. I hadn't been paying attention, and it was more than I could bear to find out that I'd been living in a fantasy of Founding Fathers, and Constitution, and democracy, and (sigh -- laugh at me if you want) the US has the best government in the world.
To go from that fantasy to the realization that we do not even have a legitimate government, that the US govt has been the cause of many of the evils it now purports to fight, that we are being hoodwinked by our government in SO many different ways, that cruelty and injustice are all in a day's work, and that it isn't about equality and fairness AT ALL but rather NOTHING BUT power and wealth -- well, it's not a quick and painless trip.
If it weren't for the wealth of information I found on the Internet and my niece who kept saying, "this doesn't really surprise me," I'm not sure I could have made the trip at all -- just because I wouldn't have been able to believe it.
What I'm saying is that it was **NEW** to me. Not quantitatively new -- "worse than I thought." But qualitatively new -- "different than I thought." To be aligned with the truth, I had to adopt a completely new way of thinking about my country, my government, and me.
I wasn't trying to hold onto the fantasy for ego reasons, but to maintain some thread of cognitive connection between my past beliefs and the reality I was learning. Just to have a place to think from so I wouldn't become a paralyzed puddle of mush on the floor.
What I want to emphasize here is that "acknowledging how much they've been screwed over" is not an easy trip to make, even for me, a person who was willing to know the truth. Not just willing -- eager, yet the truth has been unbelievably painful, too much to take at times.
Periodically, I notice that my understanding of the truth has dropped down to another level, and I'm stunned with disbelief. I simply don't know how to think about it. The way the Medicare vote was handled was my latest drop. Three hours during which legislators were pressured to change their votes by the House leadership and the President ("but that's the Executive Branch," my fantasy-ridden mind cried)!
"We don't even have a legitimate government!" I screamed to a friend. Quietly, he said, "yup." I knew that, but now I know it deeper.
It's a difficult trip. I'm not advocating patience, or acceptance, or even a different approach toward those who "seem incapable of acknowledging how much they're being screwed over." That would not be wise. But I am advocating a bit of understanding.
It's a terribly difficult trip to go from there to here. I know, because I used to be there. And there are times I wish I could go back, just for a moment, just for a rest.
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