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some where in your life something is causing you to be depressed; that's the listless don't-care attitude you are feeling.
I have gone through this twice; once I was more prepared, quit my job, packed up everything I owned and moved half way across the country to a place where I knew no one. Seemed like a good idea at the time, but in reality, it was like stepping into quicksand, as I slowly over the course of several years sunk deeper and deeper, lost more and more.
Finally I bottomed out, reached out to family for help; got assistance to move all the way back to my home town, and family and friends helped me get back on my feet and out on my own again. Life is much better now than it was either before I moved away, or before I moved back.
If you don't have family near, it might be helpful to move back to where they are; as long as you are willing to accept their love, and give yours without criticism. I was very fortunate to be born into a great family, not every one is so lucky.
One of my favorite concepts: "You can choose to be with me or not, but I have to stay with me." - Ashleigh Brilliant
When I first read that, I thought, "yeah, lucky you, you can leave, but I'm stuck here." Years later, I've learned to see it as, "the most important thing for me to be is some one I can live with and care about, because I'm not going any where."
Probably the best choice for you would be to figure out the root of your depression and strive to resolve that. For whatever reason, you seem to be seeing your self as some one who doesn't deserve what you have. Since you don't feel you deserve it, you are indifferent to thoughts of losing it.
Some one else mentioned chemical imbalance; that could be a factor also. Try increasing your B vitamin intake; brewers yeast is a good source of the full range of B vitamins. Check the local health food store of GNC-type store.
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