I think I lefy my reputation in Boston

[JohnKleeb]

Anyone wanna help me find it? Oh and I'll be drinking only soda so you dont have to worry about me going wack.

[johnnie]

1. Reputations can be hard to get rid of

Be glad you left yours there. :)

[JohnKleeb]

2. But I liked being innocent and free of sin

:( Now I gotta move on, and realize that I cant turn out ways.

[CubsFan1982]

4. *snort*

:rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl:

Sorry, Kleebster. Even I don't buy that one. :D

[JohnKleeb]

6. What, you dont believe that I only drank before Boston

Its true ya know, and I only drank because its part of my culture :).

[johnnie]

5. You can claim it was your twin

And you were in church all weekend. :shrug:

[JohnKleeb]

7. but I dont have a twin

:cry: and I dont feel the same as I did.

[swag]

3. HELP HIM! HELP HIM!

[YellowRubberDuckie]

8. Going wack...

:rofl: Did you fail to tell me something?
Duckie

[JohnKleeb]

9. I am a little down

honestly. I remember a litlte how I was over the weekend and then I think of things and then I am like oh god please dont let me turn in to that.

[swag]

Sounds like a latent apology, or maybe a cry for help.

I fucked up in Boston on booze once a few years ago.

Didn't get laid, but it was fun. Most of it. Except the eternal regret, of course.

At least I got to hear some good jazz at Wally's.

[asthmaticeog]

10. "Reputation is an idle and most false imposition;

oft got without merit and lost without deserving."

-- Shakespeare, Othello

[JohnKleeb]

11. Didn't Iago later get thrown in jail?

:P

[asthmaticeog]

12. Is underage drinking not illegal?

:P

[JohnKleeb]

13. True

I sometimes feel like quitting all together sometimes to save myself.

[asthmaticeog]

16. Then what the hell are you gonna do when you get to college?

[JohnKleeb]

18. ha you actually think I was serious? :D

[asthmaticeog]

24. *whew*

You had me worried for a minute that you were going to miss out on that all-important American rite: 4 consecutive years spent simultaniously training and trashing your mind. Those who survive emerge wiser; the hotter the forge, the stronger the steel.

[JohnKleeb]

25. Of course

I learned a very important word this weekend, MODERATION.

[asthmaticeog]

Yeah, you can only learn your limits by exceeding them, unfortunately.

[tjwmason]

47. That's the ultimate loss of innocence

You think it bad when you realise how bad you can be?

It's when you've been in sooooo deep that you come out the other side and drink in moderation. :scared:

[greatauntoftriplets]

14. If you expect us Chicagoans to believe that you didn't get shitfaced...

:rofl:

[JohnKleeb]

15. I did

I won't deny it, I made a complete ass of myself.

[greatauntoftriplets]

35. Good ol' Chicago...

Cards hard!

:)

antiwarwarrior (who is a moderator) never ordered an alcohlic beveraqe until he turned 21.

That is good!

On edit: I imagine the Boston contingent will criticize me for this, but...

[JohnKleeb]

36. Oh I had people get them for me

Oh man I am soooooo fubared when I turn 21 :D, I'll be fine I guess, just reflectin ya know.

[Droopy]

17. Is that anything like

"I Left My Heart in San Francisco?"

[JohnKleeb]

20. Nah

its more like hey I could control myself but now I cant and I know I cant.

[WI_DEM]

19. You're being too hard on yourself

your 17 you went to Boston--you had a few to drink. You hung out with some great people. You had fun. That's what you should be doing at 17.

[JohnKleeb]

21. I feel like people think lower of me because of how i acted

I acted like a complete fool.

[asthmaticeog]

28. Look, not that I was there to see it,

but it happens to everyone who drinks sometimes. You overdo it, you act foolishly, whatever. You were among friends, no worries. Hell, you probably weren't the only one. So long as you didn't hurt anyone, it's nothing to beat yourself up about.

[JohnKleeb]

30. I know

Its odd how self conscious i was when I was drunk, I was thinking damn, I dont wanna be like dad. I think too much. Sigh, I wish I had a smoke.

[Droopy]

33. Amen, man

I can't count high enough to tell you how many times I've been drinking and goofing off. Made a fool out of myself plenty of times. But like you said, Kleeb was among friends and it's all cool.

[lumberingbear]

22. Kleeb, I greatly doubt you did anything that bad.

Your just feeling guilty about drinking alot and worrying that people on here won't love you anymore. You have thought about it so much that you have probably blown it all out of proportion. Try to forget about it and go on from here. Everyone still loves you!

:hug:

[JohnKleeb]

23. Its more of a realization

I know it sounds like a crock but when I was drunk saturday night, I couldn't help to think about hte many alcoholics in my family, I was like oh no I dont wanna be like that. As much as I love and admire my dad, I want a different life than his.

[swag]

26. didn't mean to make light of it

I like these guys:

www.smartrecovery.org

and sometimes

www.rationalrecovery.org

[JohnKleeb]

27. Oh no its ok

I can be serious and silly at the same time, I am a big paradox.

[lumberingbear]

32. My Dad was an alcoholic...

He stopped drinking before I was born. None of us kids became alcoholics, but I know we all had a few experiences like you had this past weekend when we were young. Just learn from your experience. Also remember....YOU ARE NOT YOUR DAD!!!

[JohnKleeb]

34. My dad only quit this past Thanksgiving

and Ive only really realized he is an alcoholic since I turned 17 this summer. Its amazing that I am alive today after the many times I drove with him while he was intoxicated, makes me wonder about life as a whole.

[lumberingbear]

37. "makes me wonder about life as a whole"

Explain please.

[JohnKleeb]

39. Sure thing dude

I know it sounds near impossible to believe but when I was wasted, I did have some normal thought processes and I began to think about how I would turn out, I thought about my dad and how hard in some ways my childhood has been because he is an alcoholic, i thought, I don't wanna be that to my kids if I have some, and I do want to have kids.

[lumberingbear]

41. Like I said before

you are not your Dad and therefore you can be what you want to be. It seems to me that this experience last weekend can be considered a positive experience since you learned what you want to be and what you don't want to be.

As for your Dad, he is doing the best he can. He's human and when your kids grow up they will look back and probably blame you for what isn't right about their life. Kleeb you are a thinker, and that can be both good and bad. Thinking can make you understand things and over-thinking can make you nuts!!!

You have been stewing about this since the weekend, give yourself a little more time for reflection and then let it go.

[JohnKleeb]

42. I am very proud of him, its been nice

[warrens]

29. That's what you get

For letting Matcom convince you "it won't hurt."

[JohnKleeb]

31. Matcom didnt convince me at all

I chose to drink.

[WI_DEM]

38. question

Did you end up kissing women's feet? If not, don't feel so bad :)
Sorry I couldn't resist.

[JohnKleeb]

40. No, my name isn't sniffa

:D.

[Prisoner_Number_Six]

43. So you finally got your moral cherry popped.

Welcome to adulthood. Now deal with it.

[JohnKleeb]

44. Oh no

I lost my innocence many years ago.

[Prisoner_Number_Six]

45. There are other forms of innocence, my friend.

I'm afraid you're still at the beginning of the grand discovery of things. There's a LONG checklist to go through yet!

Depressing little twit, ain't I! :evilgrin:

[JohnKleeb]

46. Life's only just begun

way I look at it.