A True Halloween Poem Involving Lesbianism and Heroin Addiction

[roughsatori]

Blue



Caroline,
her lover Kathy
and I are excited:

the heroin
we just bought
is rumored
to be excellent.

Kathy sits on the floor
snorting hers,
I inject Caroline
with the stuff.

Pulling a belt tight
around my arm,
I notice
Caroline’s head
hanging.

“She’s turning blue,
we’d better call an ambulance,”
Kathy says.

I look:
I’ve never seen
lips that color.

I think:
“Thank God the dope’s good;”
stick the needle’s point
into my vein,
feel the warmth
of the drug,
drop
the syringe.

Caroline falls off the chair.

“Giver her mouth to mouth,”
I say.

“I don’t know how,”
Kathy answers,
snorts another line.

Thinking
I’m lucky
to be so high,
I try to remember
C.P.R. films,
place my lips
over Caroline’s
breathe into her.

It isn’t working.

I pick her up,
tell Kathy
I need help.

She says,
“You’re blowing my high.”

I fall against
the kitchen table
knocking it over.

The body hits the floor,

I jump on the body,
pound its chest
to start the heart.

“I’m going to use
the guy-next-door’s phone
to call the ambulance-

“Give her mouth to mouth,”
I holler
running out of my apartment.

I dial for help,
give the address;
walk back
across the hallway
with relief.

My apartment door
is closed.
I think
“Face it
she’s dead;”
open the door-

see Kathy sucking
Caroline’s left nipple,
fingering her vagina.

The right nipple
is the bluest nipple
I’ve ever seen.

Stunned:
I think,
“This must be hell.”

I back out of the room,
close the door quietly,
knock
and open it.

Kathy looks up smiling,
“Relax honey,
she’s gone.”

“Fuck you,”
I shout;
opening the window
to let cold air in.

I kneel
beside Caroline, thinking,
“My best friend’s dead.”

I whisper in her ear,
“The police are coming,
you’d better hope you die.

‘They’ll call you’re parents,
who’ll be pleased to hear
their dyke daughter O.D.ed
on heroin.

‘Caroline,
your parents are here,
WAKE UP.”

She springs
from the floor,
tries to run through
the kitchen wall,
falls down whimpering.

“You stupid bitch,”
I scream,
“Kathy, get her out of here!”

They leave.
I cry,
run to the street,
wait.

The police
arrive before the ambulance.
I explain:

“It’s okay,
she came to
and left.”
He shakes his head,
drives off.

Knowing
Caroline has more
heroin in her pocket

I run through
the Lower East Side
to her apartment,

dodging Puerto-Rican kids
in Halloween costumes.

I hear one
in a clown suit say,
“Did you see that white girl?
She’s what I call stoned.”

His friend,
a witch,
laughs-
“They’re all fucking crazy.”

[nuxvomica]

1. OK. I'm definitely creeped out.

Well done.

[roughsatori]

2. Thanks, it is true, but I wrote it as a joke

for some friends who were into "the new narrative poetry." Halloween always reminds me of that night.

[Rhiannon12866]

3. I agree. What a horrifying scenario. But I felt as if I were there.

:scared::scared::scared:

[Nlighten1]

4. Wow

That was crazy. Very good poem though