Breakking news...ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

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I get all ancy about thinking what I gave up. A wicked paying job for an even better paying job, that didn't work out, as someone who doesn't take shit from people - I quit.

SO now I am looking for work hoping for $12 an hour at least to be a full time journalist. On one hand, I think "hey, I've never been about money anyway." On the other I think "Fuck...moron you coulda been set for life if you had some patience."

But the good jobs sucked. I hated them..I loved being a journalist all the way. But then I get freaked thinkin about what I gave up, it's like this side of me concerned with possesions takes over briefly. Then I hang out with my blue collar friends and have this urge to just become a tradesman, find a nice girl and settle down.

I figure many times I have my life too confused. I know I have to leave town to get a start in my field, but I have serious roots here and don't wann ago now. (when I was 20 you coudn't pay me enough to stay here). Now owever, I have people I've been friends with for 20 years and at age 24 that's a long time.

I will leave if I have to, but at the same time, I want a good paying job, to stay here and do my thing. But I know I would regret it further if I became about money and what not..but it feels comforting at this point....I was the only one of my friends who ever had any true spirit of adventure. I went to an academic post secondary, I love to write and I love culture. Sometimes I think I'm some freak outcast who can't cope with reality. Anyway....your thoughts.

Yes I have been drinking....but this is all true.

[Exultant Democracy]

1. I say put it off

whay diff will a few months/years make in the end. Take as much time as you want and make sure what you do is right for you.

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3. you know

That makes sense. I mean that...never looked at it that way. I have this odd deep feeling that I will make a goo dliving my way. Usually those feelings are correct.

I mean that, thanks.

[La_Serpiente]

2. Quite an amazing story young man

Maybe you should just quit everything and live like Henry David Thereoux (I think that's how you spell it) in the middle of nowhere for awhile. That way, you can reflect on things that are going and write a good book. :-)

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4. Thoreau

Yeah, but my creditors would think too much of that. ;-) .

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5. brain buzz...read my side of the moutnain

lots of thoreau references