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For the last twenty-five years, I have lived in a comfortable farm house that was built about 1899. Although my house is old, we are the second family to own it. We bought it from the youngest of six sons, whose family had always lived and farmed on this property. The man who sold it to us was in his sixties at the time, and wanted to retire to town. He was a wonderful man, who died last year at ninety-one. If he or any other member of his family would choose to haunt this place, they would probably do so as benign guardian spirits. They would know we love this place as much as they did.
My haunting did not take place in an picturesque Victorian, or an old family home rich in history. It took place in a neat little bungalow that was probably built in the early 1950's.
After World War II, my mother married and stayed in Illinois. Her two sisters moved out West. Her sister Mary had a husband who supervised logging crews for a big company. Her sister Beth, barely out of her teens, had tagged along for adventure, and worked in a nearby town. In July of 1957, one month before my ninth birthday, my mom, my five-year-old brother and I, went out to visit them.
My Aunt Mary and her husband lived in a nice three-bedroom bungalow that was provided by the logging company. Mary and her husband, of course, shared the master bedroom. My five-year-old cousin Jannie and her baby brother shared another bedroom. The back bedroom, the adults told us, was just for storage. Stay out of there, they said.
Across a wide driveway from the bungalow was a neat little bunkhouse where logging crews sometimes stayed. I thought it was the best playhouse in the whole world. My mom, my brother and I slept there. My young Aunt Beth joined us on that vacation, and she slept in the bunkhouse, too.
While my mother and her sisters caught up, I played house with my brother and cousin. Sometimes we explored the nearby woods. But I was a well-behaved baby-boomer daughter, a regular little housewife-in-training. I often helped my Aunt Mary with household chores, like laundry and dishes.
One day, I was helping Aunt Mary fold towels and sheets as we took them off the clothesline. When we brought the towels and sheets into the house, I offered to put them away.
"No, you don't have to," Mary said. "Those towels belong in storage, in the back bedroom. I will take care of them later."
All right, I was not always well-behaved. I sailed off down the hall, towels stacked in my arms, towards the back bedroom. I opened the door, and went in.
The room contained only a double bed, and a dresser with a mirror. It was that ugly blonde furniture popular in the 1950's. There were two uncurtained crank-out windows, high on the wall. The bedspread was that horrid green popular in those days. I think it was referred to as chartruese. The room had the closed and slightly mildewed odor of any unused space.
However, the cold in the room was so intense that I sucked in my breath. And the cold was the least of it! I was assaulted by a wave of emotion so intense and terrifying that I had to sit down on the bed. I did not see anything, or hear any voices in my head, but I felt a wave of deep sadness. It was sadness so desperate, it bordered on insanity. I felt like something was calling, "help me, help me," over and over, without using words. I do not remember what I did with those towels, but I remember first pressing my hands to my ears, then rising and opening the door that had closed behind me, and running blindly down the hall. I ran until I hit a wall of four frightened-looking adults: my two aunts, my mother, and my uncle.
My aunt grabbed and hugged me. I remember that my skin felt cold next to hers, after the intense chill of the room. She asked me if I was all right. I sobbed once, and nodded.
Then she took me by the shoulders, shook me, and said, "I told you to stay out of there!"
The four adults dispersed to take up their interuppted business. No one said another word.
For the rest of the visit, I could sense that Aunt Mary remained angry with me.
On the train ride home, I thought about that room. I thought then that something had died in there. It was not until I was older that I understood that whomever had died in that room was still reaching out for comfort and help.
During the early years of my uncle's employment, the logging company moved him around quite a bit. By the next time we visited, they lived in a much nicer house, and I shared a cheerful bedroom with my counsin Jannie.
To this day, no member of my family has ever mentioned this incident. In fact, this is the first time I have ever told anyone.
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