The most transparent repetetive dream I've ever had.

[crim son]

Every time I close my eyes lately (today for a nap for example) I have the same dream. I arrive at a mall in a van with family and friends. I immediately go to my favorite shop which is filled with imported furniture and pottery and incense and imported food and everything I love. Suddenly I realize I A)have been left behind by my family and friends. I have no money and can't get myself home. Oh, it's always night time in the dream; and B)my legs are beginning to fail me - another common theme in my dreams. I leave my favorite store and start to walk through the rest of the mall. I see lovely shops which I can't get into because my legs keep giving way and I sink to the floor. People stare at me as I tremble and sweat, trying to stand up and move along casually, but then I fall again. Suddenly a big man of about forty appears and picks me up. He half carries, half supports me as we walk through the mall toward the parking lot. I feel safe, and then he tells me, "Wait here" and then leaves. He does not return and as I realize that he will not, I wake up.

It would be laughable if it weren't so pathetic.

[idgiehkt]

1. It's not pathetic.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QIKBq9TeFlw

It sounds like the story of your life thus far...like you are playing it over and over and then awakening in the present time.

:loveya:

[crim son]

3. I wuv you too.

I can't donate until tomorrow and then you'll have a not-so-anonymous heart from me. What a great song. Joe Cocker is fantastic. :loveya: :hug:

[idgiehkt]

16. well

I already gave you yours. :loveya: I'm in a race to max out my new credit limit, lol.

[crim son]

19. Thank you!

I have to activate my card because it's new and I just don't have the desire to get out of my comfy chair right now. You're the dearest thing. :hug:

[Droopy]

2. Why do you think that is pathetic?

We all need someone sometimes. Even hardened, psychotic truck drivers like me.

[crim son]

5. I suppose because the person who helps, leaves too.

Depressing. But here, you psychotic truckdriver: :hug: :hug: :hug: I hope you have the somebody you need. :hi:

[Droopy]

11. Well there is nobody right now

But there is this cute, hardened, psychotic, lady truck driver I work with who doesn't have a wedding ring on. So who knows? ;)

[SPKrazy]

4. Learn From Your Dreams

pay attention to what they mean

the repetitive nature is rooted in the idea that there is a theme here that is your life.

Not pathetic, instead see it as a lesson, or lessons.

:hug:

[crim son]

7. The lesson being that there will be nobody to help me so I

might as well just stay crumpled on the tile floor? That's how the damned thing always ends. :think:

[SPKrazy]

14. Think Metaphorically

not literally

I don't know the answer, it's your dream friend.

I doubt it is as "doomed" sounding as it seems literally in your mind.

Write about it.

:hug:

[crim son]

20. I suck at all kinds of interpretation.

The Traveler and you will help me :)

[SPKrazy]

27. ...

I've copied and pasted it and e-mailed it to myself to think about later

I'll send you a bill

:rofl:

[crim son]

28. ...which I will put in my desk drawer and forget about.

:rofl:

[SPKrazy]

29. ....then the collections start

:rofl:


:hug:

[crim son]

30. I might as well get used to it!

Avoiding collectors' calls, I mean. :P

[SPKrazy]

33. Good Practice

screen your calls

:rofl:

:P

[Mary Tyler Moore]

6. I have had similar dreams,

... except my family or friends would side with the one person that terrifies me most, or sometimes tricking me to walk over broken glass or betraying me to those who were pursuing me. I had many dreams where my brothers and sister push me off a bridge or chase with a knife and my legs get that gooey feeling, like your dream.
Um, I guess they are not that much alike.

[crim son]

8. Well, the leg thing is critical.

You feel weak and helpless, like you've run out of options or something. Your dream sounds terrible too. :hug:

[Mary Tyler Moore]

10. I am hoping...

that I have found the cure... I am presently researching how to induce sex dreams.

but I prefer a dreamless, peaceful sleep.

[crim son]

12. Sex dreams make me cry. I can't fucking win!

:rofl:

[raccoon]

72. Reading "Jagger Unauthorized" helped me.

"I am presently researching how to induce sex dreams."

[InternalDialogue]

46. crim son, I have dreams where my legs fail me too.

It used to feel horribly frustrating and made me feel incredibly vulnerable. At a certain point, though, I began flying in the dreams. Instead of stumbling or losing my legs, I would float at first, then take long leaps, then finally fly. I still have dreams when I want to run and can't, and I still stumble in my dreams, but whenever it's really critical, I always remember I can fly and it happens.

That only deals with one little part of your dream, but it's a thought for perspective. I don't think negative things in dreams are always negative, and I don't think everything is necessarily symbolic. I used to fret about how difficult it was to run when I dreamed, but I think I've learned that I just needed to accept that what I thought was the right way to move in dreams only worked in real life.

[crim son]

47. InternalDialogue, that's such a neat thing to hear!

My personal life mirrors the dream, right down to the lack of money and abandonment by a big man. But the flying... I wonder if I can have some control over that? Since I have the dream almost every night I will try to remember what you said. You really can fly? "...what I thought was the right way to move in dreams only worked in real life." :hug: I love this.

[InternalDialogue]

49. Years and years ago, I read a book on how to dream lucidly.

It was sort of a "do this set of exercises and keep a dream journal for three months" kind of deal, and it was supposed to lead you to be lucid in any dream you wanted to at any time. I never really followed through on the whole thing, but I was able to work through two recurring dream situations that always scared me. One was not being able to run -- I think my frustration with that and the slim knowledge of lucid dreaming was what got me to flying.

The other was getting shot -- it didn't happen really often, but I used to wake with a start when someone would shoot me in my dreams. Now, it's almost like I cringe before getting shot, but I know somehow that I'm bulletproof.

I wish I remembered more about how the whole lucid dreaming process worked, but if you're up for exploring a little about yourself and have the time, it might prove interesting. I'll check around Amazon for the book I remember reading (I gave it to a friend a long time ago), and I'll PM you if I find it.

[crim son]

52. Thanks. I'll also look around for information.

One of my recurring dreams is of getting shot in the back and sinking to the bottom of a slow-moving stream/canal, right before a stone-arch bridge. I never feel any pain... rather a sense of peace as I find myself staring at the pebbles on the bottom of the canal.

[Generic Brad]

9. I may be the man of your dreams

I'm a big man in my forties and make it a habit to pick up weak sweaty women in malls and abandon them in the parking lots. It's sort of a hobby of mine.

[crim son]

13. Cool.

Next time can you buy me some of the pizza I see them rolling out as I lie there right after you dump me off? Then at least I won't be hungry. :P

[The Traveler]

15. Listen to SPK

He's right. There is a lesson to be acted upon in your dream. Hence the recurring nature of it ... you haven't acted yet.

The themes are the experiences of abandonment and powerlessness, the implication being your power derives from your associations with others. The implicit flip side of that is that the power you need to use is already yours ... but you have to marshal it and use it.

Amateur dream analysis is alway suspect ... but hey, I used to pay big bucks to a Ph.D./M.D. for this kind of thing and I'm not sure she wouldn't have said the same thing. :)

:loveya:

Trav

[idgiehkt]

17. that sounds right

:hi:

I feel like I haven't dreamed in ages and ages. :shrug:

[crim son]

22. I don't even like it.

When I had to take stuff to sleep I didn't dream, but normally I dream crazily. These days it is unpleasant and casts a pall over the whole next day. Maybe you need to eat more spicy foods?

[The Traveler]

26. I haven't had any dreams in a while

Maybe I need to talk to MTM about techniques for "inducing sex dreams"?

:shrug:

Good to see ya


:hug:

[idgiehkt]

45. good to see you too

:hug:

[The Traveler]

48. Pssst ...

Check out the BNL adult toy thread.

:evilgrin:

[idgiehkt]

50. lol

heading right on over there :evilgrin:

[crim son]

18. I didn't look at it that way and I bet you're right.

You wise and mysterious man, you. :loveya:

I guess I am terrified of being independent because I don't think I can manage it, financially or otherwise. I'm going for it, anyway.

[The Traveler]

21. As long as

you aren't associating me with Michael Meyers in your dreams, we're cool.

:rofl:

[crim son]

24. Oh no, my friend.

You cleared that up for me last night. Now I associate you with you!

[idgiehkt]

23. you can do it

No prob, chica. :hug:

[crim son]

25. It's true; I can.

I'm very good at finding ways to occupy myself and money isn't a prerequisite for happiness (although it might be for good hair).

[Left Is Write]

31. Huh....

I don't have that dream, but I often have dreams where my legs are giving way or I'm moving as if through mud or underwater, or I'm trying to dial a phone number and keep misdialling, having to start over and over because I can't control my fingers.

I don't think you're pathetic at all.

[crim son]

32. The phone aspect is interesting.

I'm in a mall, surrounded by people who are staring at me and things I can't have. You're trying to contact somebody and aren't able. Of course pawpicker will say I'm too literal. Thanks for not cheerfully agreeing that I'm pathetic :pals:

[graywarrior]

34. You have abandonment issues.

But I love you.

[crim son]

35. I love you back.

Even with that haircut, I love you.

[graywarrior]

36. Thank you, garish, "attention whore" blondie.

[crim son]

37. That's me!

Love me or leave me. Probably leave me. :P

[graywarrior]

38. Never!

[BarenakedLady]

39. Heya baby!

I barely remember my dreams anymore. Though usually they are better than my reality, which is probably why I've been sleeping in lately. Oh well.

Miss you. I had a blast this weekend. I'll have to tell you all about it sometime.

:hug:

You are far from pathetic my dear friend. :loveya:

[crim son]

40. OMG!!!!! n/t

[BarenakedLady]

41. OMG WHAT?????

:rofl:

[crim son]

42. OMG I was just about to post a "Where's BNL?" thread.

Instead I've posted a "BNL is Back!" thread. :hi: Hi BNL. We missed you.

[BarenakedLady]

43. You knew I was going to RI, silly.

You just forgot...I'm blinded by all your hearts...look at how loved you are sweetie. :hug:

[crim son]

44. I got 'em all for myself.

I knew you were in RI but I thought you should be back by now! :hug:

[Starbucks Anarchist]

51. Interesting...

I'm not in the right frame of mind right now to analyze it, but it's an interesting dream. :hi:

[crim son]

53. Hi my friend.

I think it's pretty much what it appears to be.

God, I feel like a nice lesbian sandwich about now. :rofl:

[Starbucks Anarchist]

54. Really? Me, too!

:rofl:

[crim son]

55. It's hard not to notice how very good you find them to be!

:rofl:

[Starbucks Anarchist]

56. I noticed I was wearing the same shirt in both sandwich pics.

It's like lesbian flypaper! :rofl:

[crim son]

57. See, I didn't notice that, but it's good to know, right?

Maybe I should borrow that shirt for next Friday night. :P

[Starbucks Anarchist]

58. Be sure I'm still not wearing it before you do.

:evilgrin:

[crim son]

59. Can't we both wear it at the same time?

I looks roomy.

[Starbucks Anarchist]

60. It might be a tight fit.

:evilgrin:

[crim son]

61. That would be a problem?

:shrug: :evilgrin:

[Starbucks Anarchist]

62. Let me think...

No! :evilgrin:

[crim son]

63. I'm sure we can make certain adjustments such that

it'd be quite comfortable. Nice, even. :D

[BlueStorm]

64. Crim son I have a feeling you have a situation

where you are feeling as if you are not in control and you feel vulnerable and abandoned. Are you having some stress at work?

Perhaps you should take a closer look as to what is happening around you. It's like one of my friends said, "Everything that is in your dream is you and about you."

I'd elaborate more but my intuitive side just doesn't want to kick in tonight. x(

Blue

[crim son]

65. You're exactly right, Blue.

My marriage is ending, for one thing. Everything makes perfect sense to me and in fact it's embarrassing that my dreaming mind can't be more creative :(

[BlueStorm]

67. So that is what is going on...hmmm

So do you feel, at this point that you are being betrayed? I am really drawn towards the paralysis that you are experiencing in your dream and the fact that you can't seem to go forward is indicative that something is upsetting you sense of self-control and that you have the sense that there is alot of chaos going on in your life and you are unsure of how your future will unfold after this particular event is over.

Blue

[crim son]

71. It's more transparent stuff. The STBE and I want to separate

for a year before the divorce, to satisfy all contingencies. We decided this last spring, but we can't sell our house and therefore cannot afford to move forward with the separation. It's a ridiculous situation. I sleep in the back wing and he sleeps in the master bedroom. Meanwhile he's going to counseling and I'm going to school, on & off, because I have no job skills and will need to work (obviously, if I'm on my own). We are trying to be strong and mature but the obstacles are very demoralizing.

Anyhow, thank you for your input. I do think it's all about my lack of control over anything right now.

[BlueStorm]

76. Well good luck on everything and hopefully

everything will turn out well. I am sending good vibes your way :)

Blue

[Whoa_Nelly]

66. It's middle age, dearheart

Happens to all of us...we all start falling down...and our hormones..well..that's just part of the story, and sometimes another story all by itself!

Meanwhile...just know..you are not alone no matter what you're dealing with in your waking life :hug:

[crim son]

69. Whoa_Nelly, we didn't exchange words last night!

And I was up until two a.m. :(

Maybe tonight?

Middle age is a cruel joke.

[Whoa_Nelly]

73. Tonight would be great!

Just PM or email when you're available! :hug:

[Mojambo]

68. I've had the "not being able to walk" dream my entire life

I hate that dream. Strangely, I'll struggle to walk forward but if I turn around and walk backward it becomes easier.

Weird.

[crim son]

70. After all the discussion, I remember having no dreams last night.

I have two thoughts now; one, that I should try flying when it happens & two, I should try walking backwards. When you walk backwards, do you feel like you're doing something bad?

[Mojambo]

74. I feel like people are going to look at me and think I'm weird and defective

Which is probably true.

[crim son]

75. Maybe, if they look really closely.

Being weird and defective is a problem only if you don't embrace it.