Saw the "ex" for the first time since July.

[crim son]

His back was to me as I entered the room. I gave him a pat on the shoulder and moved on. Finished my drink and left the bar where the once "love of my life" was lurking somewhere in a corner. Didn't even try to find you.

My feelings are: I'm proud for not falling apart. I'm happy because although I'm thinking of it now, I didn't dwell on it all night and finally, I realize I simply don't love him any more and the fact that he feels the same way is not like a knife to my heart.

He will not be my first thought when I wake tomorrow morning. It's... a miracle.

[Starbucks Anarchist]

1. ...

:hug:

[crim son]

3. SA.

I knew the shape of him and all of the rest of it. I finished my drink and left telling Maineiac that I might bring it up again once I'd had another drink or two.

The overwhelming sensation is surprise. Sure I'm sad because I'm alone and he's not, but... I don't want him.

I want you! :P

Life goes on. How are you tonight, lovely man?

[Starbucks Anarchist]

6. Finally, somebody wants me.

:rofl:

Doing well. Just came home from a friend's place after we celebrated his birthday.

[ThomCat]

2. Good for you.

:hug:

You'll have a lot more fun once you're entirely free of him.

[crim son]

5. It's right around the corner.

I'm thinking of somebody else. It's a tremendous step which I didn't know I'd taken until tonight.

Thom! I don't care and I can't believe it. Now, to bed before I pass out from shock and surprise.

[badgerpup]

8. May I horn in?

And congratulate you on your healing process? :hi:

The cliche is that the opposite of love is hate. That's not true; the opposite of love OR hate is indifference.

Once you've reached that stage, the bandages are ready to come off, cos you are almost whole again!

I'm kinda tangled up here meself...that 'mummy wrap' look gets old...
and I don't mean just 'ancient'.:silly:

[crim son]

18. I hope your bandages fall away soon, badgerpup.

It's a wonderful feeling. :hug:

[Clark2008]

35. Was about to say the same thing!

Well, not the part about the mummies. LOL.

[VenusRising]

4. Good for you!

Sometimes it seems like feelings will go on forever. Glad it's better for you.

:hug:

[Hugin]

7. Hugs for you crim son.

:hug:

It's hard, but, you'll make it. :D

[The Traveler]

9. And so it goes

Life cuts. We heal.

And tho we have never met, it is quite possible, even likely, you will be my first thought in the morning. What's a poor southern boy to do?

:shrug:

[crim son]

13. How about

make me smile? What a lovely thing to read this morning. :hug:

[u4ic]

10. That's great, crim son!

Now it seems like much of the past is behind you.

A chance to enjoy the present, and to look to the future in hope!! :toast: :hug:

[SPKrazy]

11. Ex's are Ex's

better to put them in Texas!

sorry texas

:rofl:

[crim son]

16. I wouldn't wish him on texas, even if the place is full of bushites.

Meh. Life marches on. P.S. He wasn't looking good but I was. :P

[SPKrazy]

26. You were lookin' mahvelous i'm sure!

ha ha

he wasn't :P

[Whoa_Nelly]

12. Damn!

You are so having life moving on! :pals: :loveya: :hug:

[crim son]

14. I so am!

And with your help. That book continues to amaze me, Whoa_Nelly. I'm feeling much better about what's happening because I know it's right. :loveya: :hug: :pals:

[leftofthedial]

15. not like a knife

[crim son]

17. Not like much of anything.

I wasn't sure until I saw him, how I would feel. How I feel is *free*

[leftofthedial]

25. good for you

emotional liberation is a wonderful thing

[Connonym]

19. That's a great milestone

It must feel very liberating. Is it the first time you've seen him since the relationship ended? It's been a year since my last relationship ended and I haven't seen him since. I've dreaded the thought of seeing him about town and even avoided liberal events because I knew he'd be there. When I think about it, it seems really immature to avoid things that I want to do because he'll be there. Amazing how I can be so old but still such a dweeb with stuff like that.

[crim son]

20. Yes, first time and while it surprised me, the biggest surprise

was not being sad, or curious, or angry, or veangeful or anything. You might be surprised the same way when you finally see your ex. Seeing him was actually good because I'd built him up in my memory and the reality was different.

Does dweeb-ness diminish with age? I haven't noticed that. :hug:

[Maine-ah]

21. .

:hug:

[Omphaloskepsis]

22. I went through something similar.

My ex was at a bar that I was at. The dumbfuck that wanted to fuck her found out I had dated her for years (and that she was hurt at how our relationship ended). I had said nothing to her that night. He (the dude that wanted to fuck her) called me outside. I grabbed my friend Jesse as we went out back. In the end, I walked away. And we beat the shit out of him.

[crim son]

23. Heh. Seriously?

Well, nobody was injured last night, unless you count me; my knees are ruined from all the dancing.

If you dated her for years it must have been difficult to end it, for one of you, anyway.

[Omphaloskepsis]

24. He wanted to be bad ass...

And beat my ass to get in her pants.. I am tiny. Jesse is 6'8" and 240 pounds. He thought he would get props for beating my ass. He didn't know he was going to end up fighting two people.

[Maineiac]

27. But the hurt knees were worth it, weren't they?

We had a wicked good time. I thoroughly enjoyed getting molested by Ellen on the dance floor. :bounce:

[crim son]

28. Totally worth it. And they are already feeling better.

Yeah, I turn my back for two seconds and she's got you in her hefty grip! :rofl:

Can you believe that guy's name is Steve? Like there aren't enough of 'em in this world! :P

[Maineiac]

29. Steve squared. baby!

It's Steve to the power of 2 in Bangor. Women of Maine, beware. Yeah, Ellen's got quite a grip. And she knows where the handle is, too. :rofl:

[crim son]

30. OMG.

I had no idea! :rofl:

[lost-in-nj]

31. Sounds like

a nice place to be.....

I'm happy for you :)


lost

[crim son]

32. It is.

How's the belly-dancing going?

[lost-in-nj]

34. Great

Its a good workout to!!
although I am not very graceful!!!! :)

I have used muscles I didn't know I had!!!!

lost

[BarenakedLady]

33. WTG!

:yourock:

:hug: