What was the lowest point in your life?

[Javaman]

For me it was sept 6th 1989.

I was living in los angeles for a total of 4 months. I was broke, no actually I had 31 cents in my pocket, not enough for a stamp at the time.

I hadn't eaten in 3 days. I was getting mildly delirious from hunger.

I just got turned down by 3 jobs.

my sister called me to bitch me out for not sending her a thank you note for some books I had stored at her home. (she has issues)

my mom calls to bitch me out because I won't claim her lottery winnings on my taxes (she has issues)

I was laying on the floor of my flop house apt because I was too weak to stand.

finally I found a place that will pay for blood.

I scraped around my apt. (seat cushions, under the refrig, etc) and scraped together 50 cents for a one way bus fair to the Van Nuys Pyramid Blood Center.

I drank a glass of water (all I had)

and took the bus in blazing 100+ heat.

While I sat in the waiting room, I watched as a parade of crack, meth and heroin addicts made their way in and out for their donations.

Finally I get called.

While I'm giving blood, I get violently nauseous because I hadn't eaten anything in 3 days and because I'm so undernourished, I barley give a half a pint of blood.

I started crying. I was so hungry.

This incredibly beautiful sweet nurse took pity on me.

She looked at me and said, "I will give you the money but don't say a thing. I can tell you are clean and are on hard times". God bless that women.

I got the money. $15 bucks. ate some of the crackers they provided and left.

I went to the local quicky stop and got some prefabricated macs and cheese. 35 cents.

I walked home as quick as possible to prepare my "feast".

Upon boiling the noodles, I went to taste them. With the noodles in my mouth I looked down into the boiling water and discovered it was rife with maggots. I spit out the noodles and threw up again.

From that point on things turned around for me and got immensely better.

[amitten]

1. Why didn't you go to a shelter or a soup kitchen?

If only to get a bite to eat...

[Javaman]

13. the normal well adjust me now, didn't know the stupid twenty something then. LOL nt

[LaraMN]

2. October 22, 2002.

When my amniocentesis results came back.

[bicentennial_baby]

3. ...

:hug:

[LaraMN]

4. I'm lucky that was my "lowest" point.

Because out of that crappy moment came one of the best things that ever could have happened to me.

:-)

[bicentennial_baby]

5. Damn straight!

I love the JackMonster :loveya:

[LaraMN]

6. Me too!

He's being irritating today. He wants Noel to play Guitar Hero non-stop, so he can dance to it.

He also shoved half the contents of a box of whale crackers down his heat vent.

[bicentennial_baby]

9. He is my hero...

:D You gotta get me some video of this dancing...

:rofl:

[LaraMN]

23. I REALLY want to figure out how to do that!

Especially after ALS posted the video of Sergio.
It was so adorable I just about died!

[Haole Girl]

7. OMG...you are so strong to have survived that

I was equally poor once. Ate nothing but oatmeal -- and just oatmeal (the plain kind, in the cardboard carton) for 2 weeks straight. Lost a lot of my hair, too, from lack of protein. On the flip side, my cholesterol has never been high! lol

I ate a box of mac & cheese, that had dead worms at the bottom of it, that my roommate was going to throw away.

We do what we have to do to survive, don't we? I was 97 lbs., soaking wet, but only asked for help once. I asked my father for $20.00. He refused. It was shortly after my Mother's death, and I'll never forget my Father saying "I guess you don't have anybody else to ask, now, do you?" I told him to never mind... and he did just that. That was the last time I ever asked anybody for money-- and that was 22 years ago.

Luckily, I pulled myself out of it... mostly, from a life insurance policy which finally paid (6 months after my Mom's death). But those hard times made me realize a lot about life... and made me appreciate the little things.

And, as poor as I was, I don't consider that the very lowest point in my life... believe it or not.


p.s., To this day, I cannot stomach oatmeal for more than 2 days at a time.

[Wetzelbill]

8. now is pretty bad

I have a lot of pain in my life right now. I'm in the process of working it all out, but I'm in a difficult stage at this time. Maybe about a month ago was worse. I'm taking steps. :)

[MissMillie]

10. probably when I weighed close to 300 lbs

and a new landlord had bought my apartment and was raising the rent 50%. I had to move, my whole body hurt because I was so big and it took a lot out of me to move myself, let alone empty out a large 6 room apartment into 5 much smaller rooms.

[Guava Jelly]

11. Sept 2005

no need to rehash..
Just an all around thank you to those here who helped me through it.
And a shout to the very special few who i love as the dearest of dear friends (you know exactly who you are)

[Bennyboy]

12. Right now.....

3 year anny of my wife and I splitting up.
No job, no prospects.
No girlfriend, no prospects
my favorite band ever broke up last weekend.
80+ year old parents insane, abusive, no help, no money.
Can't donate to DU pledge drive.
No car.
All my friends live a long ways away.
Crop gone.

[Javaman]

15. I understand...

But trust me, it will get better.

During my bleakest of bleakest times, I never gave up believing in myself. Hope is another thing. :) But once I understood the concept of investing in yourself, my life changed.

take small steps forward, the giant leaps hurt at this time, just small steps.

No matter what happens, always believe that you are a good person.

And if anything, just appreciate the world around you. It's free and always there. :)

[Bennyboy]

17. Thanks a lot....

[amitten]

24. Sayin' a prayer for you right now.

I know things will look up for you.

[Bennyboy]

25. Thanks

[ThomCat]

14. After the accident that damaged my knees

I couldn't work. I became homeless in November in Buffalo. People I thought were my friends wouldn't let me come over to take a shower or sleep on their couches.

Because I was a college student, the financial aid that already paid for my school year counted as income so I didn't qualify for any assistance.

I was struggling to walk and couldn't get to my classes. I certainly couldn't walk to a job.

I had to break down and call my mom, who I had not been speaking to a few years. Surprising, she offered to help. If she hadn't I would not have made it through the winter.

[Roon]

16. When my Mother rejected me after coming out

of the closet. I thought the unconditional love was gone. I contracted hiv very shortly after. If I had to do it all over again, I would never tell my Mother that I am gay.

[SPKrazy]

18. okay, that is a low point for sure

can't beat that i don't think.

lowest i've been was truly self-induced misery.

i haven't had to live in the lowest level of self induced misery for 22 years now.

glad things are so much better for you javaman

:hi:

[Dragonbreathp9d]

19. After a full two months of NO sleep whatsoever

unless you include a quick nod that you just jerk out of, and four months straight of a solid headache, sometimes too harsh to see, depressed out of my mind, I total my car. I was hit by a Dodge Ram going about 50 in the school parking lot. I drove a 95 Buick Park Avenue, a fuckin tank, and it was fucked. I got out of the car and bawled uncontrolably on the curb. My dad came up and started screaming at me infront of everybody while I was about to hyperventalate from crying so hard.

I was one of those who stored everything up and it all came crashing down.

[Dragonbreathp9d]

20. But most recently, when the reality of my 18 yr old roommate's death sank in

God I miss him...

Duncan Osborn
1988-2006

[bikebloke]

21. Farm work near the Dead Sea

Three hundred meters below sea level.

The other kind of low was living in a homeless shelter.

[stuntcat]

22. I'm glad things got better!

I mean they couldn't have got much worse, I don't think.. then at least you got back on your feet! so to speak

My low was my wreck/traumatic brain injury, December 1999. It was a pitifully low point and I'm still rising out of it.

Often what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.. it looks like that's how it's worked out for You anyway, and me too :hi: