I am haunted

[RetroLounge]

Now nearly all those I loved and did not understand when I was young are dead, but I still reach out to them.

Of course, now I am too old to be much of a fisherman, and now of course I usually fish the big waters alone, although some friends think I shouldn't. Like many fly fishermen in western Montana where the summer days are almost Arctic in length, I often do not start fishing until the cool of the evening. Then in the Arctic half-light of the canyon, all existence fades to a being with my soul and memories and the sounds of the Big Blackfoot River and a four-count rhythm and the hope that a fish will rise.

Eventually, all things merge into one, and a river runs through it. The river was cut by the world's great flood and runs over rocks from the basement of time. On some of the rocks are timeless raindrops. Under the rocks are the words, and some of the words are theirs.

I am haunted by waters.

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I have been haunted by several ghosts from my past this week...

Everytime I am determined to live in today, my past comes looking for me.

Sigh...

RL

[lizziegrace]

1. ...

is there unfinished business, perhaps?

[RetroLounge]

6. God, I hope not...

after 15 years without a word, what would I possible have to finish?

and why does she contact me now?

My friend told me he believes it's a case of when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. He thinks perhaps I need to learn something...

:shrug:

RL

[Fire Walk With Me]

9. "Learning."

Run. Now. Flee.

[RetroLounge]

13. Yeah, we had a phrase for it.

"Just another fucking growth experience..."

:hi:

RL

[lizziegrace]

11. I thought

it was more than just one ghost.

:hug:

[RetroLounge]

12. Yes. One makes sense. The other. Nope.

And several in the wings i'm sure. They come in 3's... Got room for one more.

:hi:

RL

[khashka]

8. Uh, yes...

And some business remains unfinished.

But he's too good a man to let it get him down - well, I think.

Sorry RL it's been a haunting time for you. Hugs.


Khash.

[RetroLounge]

10. Thank you my friend...

:hug:

RL

[lost-in-nj]

2. Actually

I know exactly what you are talking about......
this week.... to much contact
way to many ghosts........

and memories....

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

lost

[RetroLounge]

7. and the least likely to contact me, did.

just too weird. But oddly welcome.

RL

[ScreamingMeemie]

3. I know that feeling.

:hug: I hope the future soon meets up with you again.

My problem is I want to be haunted by the past.

[RetroLounge]

4. I know... Many many hugs to you, Mrs G

:hug:

RL

[ScreamingMeemie]

5. I am sorry you are having a rough time and I really hope things

begin to look up for you soon... Take care of yourself. :loveya:

[ThomCat]

14. I hope your hauntings are good for you somehow.

:hug:

The past never leaves us alone. It follows us, and we almost always choose to carry it with us wherever we go. The least we can hope is that it will be a pleasant companion. :)

[RetroLounge]

22. Hopefully

:hug:

RL

[SPKrazy]

15. A river runs through it?

we will neither regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it :shrug:

always made me wonder exactly how that happens too

:hug:

[RetroLounge]

17. Yeah, the phrase "I am haunted by waters"

came to me today. Reminded me of the short story...

:hi:

RL

[Deja Q]

16. Better that than precognition

:D

Okay, sometimes precognition can be a good thing.

Well, that or I get paranoid over every little bit of conjecture...

[NMDemDist2]

18. damn, you too?

I had a dream about my ex a couple nights ago

we've been divorced for almost 25 years and he's one of the few ex's I didn't stay friends with

:shrug:

I figure he died (he was 15 years my elder) because I usually have dreams when people I've been close to die.

odd eh? maybe I need to write him a 'dead letter' I never did make amends to him.....

:hide:

[RetroLounge]

19. I figured I was "dead" to these ghosts

maybe it's time for an amend?

:shrug:

RL

[NMDemDist2]

20. that's usually my first thought when an uncomfortable

ghost shows up

:shrug:

:hug:

[RetroLounge]

21. Yeah, but my old sponsor forbade me

from talking to these 2. Always got me in trouble...

:shrug:

RL

[NMDemDist2]

23. i see

I'd love to hear the back story on that one

:rofl:

[RetroLounge]

25. "except when to do so would injure other..."

:shrug:

:hi:

RL

[Tuesday Afternoon]

24. good movie

that is all.

[RetroLounge]

26. Yes, it was.

that is all...

RL