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[LeftyFingerPop]

I see a shrink to monitor my depression meds (don't really get therapy anymore). He is a smart man, who also happens to be a neurosurgeon (go figure).

Saw him yesterday and explained the whole saga about why my ortho guy fired me. Told him about not having any pain relief. He insisted on writing me a script, I refused. He asked why...told him I was embarrassed by what happened at the ortho...his assistant refused to write me a script. Told him I would only accept script from primary care or new ortho. He told me I was not being rational, but I told him that it was a matter of pride and I would never again be questioned by some fucking office flunky about my motives for seeking pain relief.

He just stared at me and told me to expect a call from my primary care today.

He must have called her and chewed her out. She called today all concerned about my well being. I get a script for the heavy strength Vicodin tomorrow, as well as some NSAIDS...and I have to get my kidney function checked every 5 days because of the NSAIDS.

Turns out the motherfuckers at the old ortho didn't even bother sending her a copy of my MRI report. I had to tell her from memory what it said. I see a new ortho in about a week.

My shrink said that this was "life altering pain", the kind of pain that causes suicide. He said "you know what I mean about that don't you. I said that I did.

He explained to me why I had the pain on the left side when the problem is on the right side of the spine. He told me how the nerves run thru the spine. It took a fucking psychiatrist to tell me all of this, from my own reading of the MRI report.

I thought I was tough. I'm not tough. This pain is destroying me. I look at myself in the mirror, and I don't see myself anymore. My eyes are sunk, and I am pale.

Let this thread sink...I'm just typing it for something to do...I can't sleep.

[elshiva]

1. Hello, McCain. And you are not my friend.

philboy is my friend. What you are McCain is a total mess. If you are going through this much pain, my suggestion is, stop running for president. Go back to Arizona, do yourself and everyone else in America a favor.


buffy

[flvegan]

2. I don't think we should make fun of any person based on medical issues

real or imagined.

Call me a net nanny or whatever, but depression is a topic best left alone.

I'll don my asbestos underwear now...

[LeftyFingerPop]

3. flvegan, this post is about myself...

I thought that was apparent...let me edit out my wise assery at the end.

[flvegan]

4. I am exceptionally sorry, philboy.

After your edit, I see your point. I'm very sorry for what I posted, and I wish you well.

[LeftyFingerPop]

5. Oh God, not your fault....

Is was stupid for me to put that, and you were not the only one who read it that way. It was my fault. Thanks a lot flvegan. :pals:

[amitten]

6. Please ask your doc about finding a pain management

specialist.

I've had chronic pain before and it just sucks the life out of you. Please be careful during this time to eat and sleep as best you can, to at least keep your strength up.

There is a way for this pain to be cured, and you will find it. Stay strong and don't lose hope. You're in my thoughts.

Imagine this is real: :hug:

[elshiva]

7. Sorry, philboy.

I thought this was a McCain joke, I did not understand that it was really about your problems. I tried to delete my first post but the time ran out.


:cry: Hon, I'm so, so sorry. You mean the world to me and all the DUers. It's a difficult time, but just keep posting here if you can't sleep. I really, really like you. :hug:

[Doug.Goodall]

8. Have you considered medical Marijuana? n/t

[NJmaverick]

9. Hang in there Philboy

:pals:

[bertha katzenengel]

10. thinking good thoughts, feeling good things for you

I don't know what to say. :hug:

[Parche]

11. I feel your pain , Pubes

:hi: :hug: