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Edited on Wed Jul-07-10 07:37 PM by GirlAfire
Hello,
I know I don't post often, but I just started law school. I really have so little time for anything other than law school. But a guy I've known close to four years has just "dumped" me.
So my ex, with whom I was still talking, just called two hours after a pleasant conversation and told me that I'm a fucking bitch and that "I have friends that are better friends to me than you are." He also told me that I have problems with empathy and selfishness. Also, he told me that maybe I needed to experience waking up from a drunk stupor with some strange guy on top of me (this was said because a guy asked for my number at a gas station).
I'd hate to bother you with a long list of specifics, but I used to tutor him, cook, clean, and things for him, but I stopped once I realized that he would never love me the way any person deserves to be loved by a significant other. He was my first love, first sexual experience, first everything, really. My race was a problem for him (he's white; I'm black) - he told me on several occasions that my skin color would get him shot. So once I realized that he could not and would not love me romantically, my feelings for him faded. He eventually "dumped" me. We've been "friends" since April of 2008.
He is obviously angry at me because I don't help him like he thinks I should. But we'd just had a normal conversation when he called me and said the aforementioned things about and to me. In that earlier normal conversation, he fussed at me for mentioning that I wanted a certain perfume. He didn't like that because he has no food and felt that I should not be talking about buying perfume while he is starving. Yet we talked about normal things, like my midterm in Civil Procedure, my classmates, my roommates, etc. I thought the conversation ended well. Apparently not.
I guess ... I just don't know how to feel about this. On one hand, I know that he used me so much - never loved me. On the other, I understand that maybe I should not have mentioned that I wanted this certain perfume while he was hungry? I just thought, as a friend, that mentioning this really great-smelling perfume was no big deal. I thought friends talked about little things like that.
I suppose I should be happy that he is gone. But ... it's just that he was so hateful toward me that's got me so on edge and so upset.
I'm in a financial bind with him. When I thought I was in love with him, I let him on as an authorized user to my credit card. Now, there is over $5,000 of debt in my name. Before him, I owed only $200. During this conversation, he said, "just try to take me to court and see where it gets you." He says this because he knows he is not legally responsible for the debt; he is only an authorized user - not a co-creditor. Is there anything I can do? I know the answer to this, but ... I'm just hoping, I guess.
Am I stupid for feeling sad right now?
I don't even know how to feel.
I am really sorry to vent like this...
EDIT: Also, I put "friends" and "dumped" in quotation marks b/c I can't really say we were friends (because of the way he treated me), and I can't say he dumped me (because he never loved me). But those words were the closest thing I could think of.
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